𝙎𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙄 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙝𝙚𝙧

ill-fated

dong hua pov.

,, You will regret it! Don't be foolish!"

That sentence held me back when I stood up there near the Zhu-Xian-Terrace in front of the stone of three incarnations. I would never fall in love. I would never have love in my life. It was scary to know that I'd be alone for my whole life. Before I became the Emperor of the nine heavens it was my biggest wish to find my person and spend my whole life with her. 

This dream was split when I became a god and the ruler of Heaven. 

What should I do now? I was clueless just there looking at the empty stone. I had to do it or the world would end and would fall forever in a nightmare of split dreams and hopes and endless fear and pain. 

I was smart enough to know that I had to do it no matter how much I didn't want to do it. 

A tear dropped of my eyes when I made a step forward. My brown hair flew in the light breeze that came from the Zhu-Xian-Terrace. Then I let my white magic run over the stone with the words on my lips: ,,Dong Hua Dijun".

There were many names engraved in golden light. Then I found mine. 

I took a deep breath and knew that I shouldn't read the name of the person I was meant to be with but I still did it. 

It was the delicatest name I've ever heard of.

 My sword that I held in my hand fell on the ground due to frustration and another tear dropped down. I didn't want to do it. I really didn't want but Heaven didn't let me choose.
I stepped three steps back. I put my hands near my chest, then drew a white circle with my activated magic in the sandy air. 

,,I'm sorry" I whispered and looked down due to sadness.

After that I let my white magic run over the stone while I was whispering a dark spell to remove my name. For somehow my heart started aching so much till I couldn't held it anymore. I spitted blood on the marble stoneground. 

I looked up to the stone, still letting my magic removing my name. I saw all my dreams all my visions flowing away within seconds like the life of a mortal. 
Finally I finished the spell and the magic dissapeared with the wind.

I fell on my knees because the pain of mine was too big. I watched how the name of my person stood alone there and I started crying. Suddenly I saw something in my eye corner. 
I grabbed my hair horrified. My brown hair started to get white. 
The white color became more and more till it got to my head. 

I couldn't say anything. I felt such an emptyness within me like every lovely emotion died when I removed my name. I let my one and only go and looked up to the name of the lady. My eyes widened. Now there was a new name next to my lady. 

,,Lord Wenchang? Why?" I stood up and let my fingers run over their names. Suddenly I felt the aching of my heart again. So it was like this. My lady wouldn't have a soulmate so I was replaced by fate with another.

,,I hope we will never meet so that I won't see what I lost" I said full of sadness. ,,I'm so sorry that I can't be by your side" I whispered and my hand run over the stone and her golden name. 

Then I turned around and promised me secretly that I would never go here again. 

,,I'm sorry... Bai Fengjiu"