Untouchable: Book 2 in the Impossible Series.

Part 13 ~ Hey...

I lay in bed watching TV after getting back from the clinic. I didn't know what to do. It wasn't a flu. I was pregnant. I sighed and cuddled my pillow I wanted to tell Jamie but I didn't know how. We weren't together anymore and I really had no idea how I'd do this alone. I had told Declan as soon as I saw him and he was happy for me, he promised he'd help me out and be the best uncle any baby could ask for. It had meant a lot to me but I knew I'd have to tell Jamie sometime. I decided I would go to Binky's party with Declan tonight and I'd tell Jamie. I stood and walked to my wardrobe deciding I'd better lay my outfit out ready. I got out a black dress with black jewels on the bust, I got matching heels and my diamond necklace that my mother had left me. I bit my lip and texted Binky "You think you could come over and help me get ready before your party? :)" I knew it was a lot to ask of her because well it was HER party but it'd be nice just to feel like one of the girls again even if it was for just a short while.

Binky arrived at my house just three hours before her party and boy was I grateful. Declan handed Binky a glass of champagne and me a glass of lemonade. I smiled gently and hugged her "thanks for coming Binks" She hugged me back and then moved to my dress "Happy to help! Now.. How about you go get into this dress and then we can see what can be done make up wise" I giggled and smiled nodding, I sipped my lemonade and grabbed the dress, I walked into the bathroom and slid into the dress, I stared at my figure for a minute as if taking a mental picture so I could remember what I looked like after having my baby. I smiled softly and made my way to Binky who grinned "Jamie is going to have a heart attack when he looks at you! Nice dress." I laughed blushing with a smile as I bit my lower lip. I loved Jamie, I always would which is what made his betrayal that bit worse. He made my heart race and my palms sweat, he made my lips and throat dry and my stomach feel like it was being eaten up by butterflies. I was in love with him and Jamie was right... I couldn't ignore that. Not forever anyway.

Binky was amazing at make up, what I hadn't realized was she was training to become a make up artist and she had even got a job working as a make up artist for the show Doctor Who. I stared at my make up in the mirror and then turned and hugged her tightly beaming "thank you!" I smiled and we both got on our shoes, got our handbags and headed to the party quickly to beat everyone else there. I smiled and looked at Binky "So how does Alex feel about you working with Stephen Moffat?" Binky grinned "Moffat as in his favourite famous person of all time? He wants me to sneak him onto the set to meet Stephen and Matt Smith." I laughed shaking my head with a smiled "oh my!" Thankfully we made it there before everyone, I bit my lip thinking about exactly what I would say to Jamie. I had no clue but he had to know, then Jamie walked in, I knew it was him because Binky suddenly went really pale and awkward. She smiled at Jamie and greeted him, he put his coat on the coat hanger at the door. Except, he wasn't alone. Stuck to the love of my life was some skinny little blonde. Fair to say I was very bitter when he walked over. I shook my head turning away, seething I made my way to the bathroom. I wasn't going to make a scene and ruin Binky's night so I locked myself in the bathroom attempting to compose myself.

I felt sick, like I couldn't breathe. How could he do this to me? How? I'd left him but we had barely been broken up two days and he was entering with another date. I took a few deep breaths, I should probably let him explain himself first. I just wanted to tell him the news and go home and curl up in bed. I unlocked the door and Jamie was stood outside of it alone. He looked at me with a sigh "can we talk?... Please?" I bit my lip nodding. Up close he really did look fucking amazing. He really suited his tux, he looked really good. Almost irresistible, I shook the thoughts out of my brain, he had a girlfriend. He wasn't mine anymore. Jamie stepped into the bathroom and shut the door behind me. I stared at him clearing my throat "she's beautiful... the girl you brought with you." Jamie nodded and looked at his feet chuckling quietly "oh you thought?.... Oh my god. She's my cousin. Alexis." He laughed softly and shook his head he then stopped laughing and looked at me "she's been helping me get back to my usual self... When you left I was a mess. She was there for me." I nodded and listened to him.

"What was it you wanted to talk about?" I sighed impatiently and Jamie nodded "oh yeah... Look, I uhm.... I just. Wanted to tell you that... I'm flying out to America next week, I'm fully recovered from the last time I was there and figure I should get to the university as soon as I can... And I didn't want to go without telling you that I love you... and I always will and.... If you can ever forgive me. If this is what you want, If I'm what you want... Please... Tell me now before I leave." I cleared my throat looking at him, I did love him more than anything in the world. I just didn't know how to forgive him, I didn't know how to forgive and forget. But I decided now would be the best time to tell him everything. So I poured my heart out to him "Jamie I do love you, I always will. You... You make my palms sweat and my heart race, you make everything okay and I don't know how I'm going to live without you... Because I don't just need to think about myself anymore.." Jamie looked at me confused he stepped closer "who else do you need to think about?" I bit my lip nervously, this was it, the moment that could make or break whatever the heck this was, whatever we were. I swallowed hard and stared into his eyes "I'm pregnant Jamie."