Rock Bottom Has A Basement

chapter 1

This story may contain triggers for traumatic events please be warned.

This chapter contains panic attacks 

y/n pov.

I can feel my hair being ripped out as my grip just continues to harden, I can't seem to stop myself as my shaking increases. As my knees move to my chest on their own. Im choking on my own breath.

Im feeling dizzy, like my room is spinning. Im trying to breath, to calm down but ever time I try I just know im going to fail and the thought is just making it worse. How can I make this damn thing stop.

"Come on y/n think" I yell as I can't stand it anymore as its felt like hours of this horrible burning in my chest as no air seems to be able to enter as my chest feels weak and thin like my racing heart is going to explode out at any moment. I know what im supposed to do to help myself, to stop all of this but for some reason its like my mind has locked that information away.

"THINK'' I yell louder but I swear it might have been a whisper "please, make it stop" I beg.

With the all the strength I have I try reaching for my phone, it right there on the night stand I just have to reach for it. My body feels so stiff as I force my self to move.

my body collapse on its side as my finger skim my phone, stretching as much as I can I finally reach it.

Hugging my knees I try calling someone anyone really but my vision is so hazy that I can't see anything. I feel as if im suffocating, making the attack worse.

Clicking on whatever I can hoping Im at least calling someone.

Breathing out for the first time as I hear the distant sound of ringing.

Ring

Ring

Ring

Ring

Ring

But just as I thought that maybe I can get through this.

"The person you are trying to reach can not take -" and just like that my eyes seem too close and the darkness take up all the light.

Aidans pov.

Im on my way home after a long day of filming. I was having such a great day really, set was amazing we were all messing around and having the best time. But at exactly 4:54 pm as my phone went off its like time had just stopped.

I wanted to answer, say something but I couldn't I was at work my phone was supposed to be on silent I had a priority, but I felt like this call was a priority too. I couldn't answer it even if I could I didn't know what I would have said. I know I would say sorry but after that say what. how do I explain myself to her.

My brain keep wondering what that call could have turned out like, if it would have been what I was hopping for, if I could finally get her back. I really want to know why she called.

Was it to talk about us.

Was it an accident. Did she butt dial me.

Or was it just to say that she wanted her hard drive back that held all the videos and pictures of us. That I might have stolen.

And with out even realizing it I had made it home. Walking to my front door I can't help but think on what I should do. Maybe I was thinking too much into this maybe I should just forget her all together.

But I knew I couldn't cause the moment I entered my room I already had my computer open to the hard drive clicking play.

--------------video plays-------------

Aidan is seen on screen in bed with his guitar

' Okay now what is that you have' Aiden smiles as he try to grab the obvious camera out of her hand, wrapping his left arm around her waist and his right tries to reach for it. Hugging her as she giggles and lets a smile graze her lips.

'Say hi, it's my new camera. Im going to be make a video dairy everyday for our future kids to see' he can hear the love and joy in her voice and even see the pure excitement in her eyes as she finally point the camera at just him as she steps back.

' Is that so' a smirk placed on his lips as he takes the camera running away. When he reaches far enough way, he looks right at it the lens breathing heavy.

'I just want you guys to know even tho your mom is mY nut case' emphasizing the my.

'I love her but Im so using this opportunity to start a prank war, so kids take notes. This is real love.' Smiling as the video show y/n running and jumping on Aidans back as if now in a piggyback.

'I finally found you, so what did you say' hugging his chest with her head turn trying to get her best view of the boy she loved so dearly

' Nothing' he says with a shrug and a small smirk looking right at the camera.

'You brought up the prank war thing didn't you' snuggling her head into his head sigh ing in false annoyance

'Maybe' in such a teasing tone anyone would know it was a yes.

'Fine BUT don't get all sad when Im better then you'

'Yeah right you wish, Im a actor, you will never know'

'We will see, we will see'

And just like that the video ends.

"Why did I push you away" I felt the tears fall but I didn't make a move to stop them, I deserved the pain I felt. I did this to myself.

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