You & I

Meeting Y/N

My name is Y/N, and recently my luck with relationships has been worse than shitty. I was in a year-long relationship with an alcoholic who was emotionally abusive and physically abusive  . My life has always been an emotional rollercoaster with relationships. I thought that I would never be happy again and find that one true connection. 

Recently, I have been taking time for myself. But yesterday, C/N texted me back. We have been talking here and there but he's been kind of distant. I hoped that he would be my person. I wanted him to be my person, but he didn't text me for like two weeks straight. So, I thought he ghosted me. 

Therefore, I ended up talking and meeting with multiple people. They didn't make me feel like C/N makes me feel. I have that spark. Every single day, I would think about C/N. Every time I would talk to other guys, it didn't feel right. It felt wrong. I literally could only think about him. I kept texting C/N, to check in and make sure he didn't die. No answers. Then, I finally got that answer. Ever since that day, we have been talking almost non-stop. I could not be happier. I wish I was there with him. I wish I could feel his skin on mine. Just his fingers... caressing my skin and running through my hair. His body and arms grasping me and not letting go. Telling me that everything is going to be okay.

He makes me so happy and makes me smile so much. Every day I wake up with pain in my face from laughing and smiling thanks to C/N. We now have been talking on the phone and facetiming for a little over a month, I want to go see him and meet up. The disappointing part about that is that he lives hours away in two states over and I have a piece of shit for a car and can't fly. My car would never be able to make it hours away and back. But for him, I will figure something out. I have too. He's worth it.