LOOKISM [Lookism X Reader] Dreams Become Reality (STOPPED)

[My New Life]

Y/N L/N 

Birthday: Month/Day/Year

Age: 12

Mother: [Mother's name]

Father: [Father's name] 

Apparently, the child of this body has the same name as mine. but we have different parents. The birth certificate also showed where this child's parents lived. But since  I think that this child is a runaway, I don't believe that I could trust the child's parents, unless I investigated what really happened between the child and parents closely. and since no one filed a missing report of a child named me. I believe the child isn't wanted by the parents. So I don't think anyone would try to find out anything about me.  And after living this new life of mine, I learned how to be clean around the house. I guess living alone makes you need to be responsible. 

In the morning I wake up and go to random stores that make doughnuts or pizzas and wait for workers that throw away goods that they can't sell and that would be my breakfast. But if there are no goods for me to eat, then I need to buy food at the place where Aunt sold me some food last time. Since I became a loyal customer. She gives me a discount whenever I purchase her food. and after eating my breakfast I go to school where I study the Korean Alphabet 

at noon I get dismissed by Ms. Penelope. Off I go food hunting again by going to different restaurants or factories that throw foods that are a defect for them to sell to the customers. I know this may be dangerous for me to eat because there may be food poisoning, but heed no worries since the workers or employees who give them tells me if they're good or bad and if they have something to give me or none. They actually want to give the food out to the poor, but sadly they don't really have time to do it, so they appreciate me getting their food so it won't go to waste. And after lunch I go to work, finding things to recycle, and while finding food I also ask the employees about things they might want to recycle, and they are kind enough to separate the things I can sell. and while trying to find things to recycle for money I also try to find jobs that may suit a kid like me. and a job that accepts kids. 

of course who would accept twelve-year-olds to work at their place? people would think I am mistreated by my parents or the people who are making me work then call the government and take my custody. Which is understandable and a situation that I would never want in my entire life. I know people who are taken by the government under their custody and they say that it is not good because they restrict many things and I don't like people bossing me about my life unless it's my mother. and by mother I mean my biological mother from my past life. I love her so much even though we fight sometimes.

and at night I try my very best to be careful of my surroundings considering that I am a child who is very defenseless against thieves, kidnappers, and other bad people who like to do bad things for a living or fun.

I keep roaming around for more information about South Korea and I found a Dojo that teaches Martial arts. I think it was Kyokushin karate 'Come to think of it, Gun Also did Kyokushin karate' So I try and copy their training so it could maybe help me fight one day. 

it's hard though. Since I don't have anyone to teach me personally if I wanted someone to teach me. I mean I can enroll myself in things like this. But It would be a waste of money.  'Imagine Gun teaching me personally...I think I'll immediately die in the process, no not the process at the beginning of the training.' As the training ends. I lay down to catch my breath.

Then lastly after that find dinner to eat. 

And after that, I go home. Everything almost repeats. Find breakfast, Go to school, Find Lunch, Work, find work, Go to the Dojo to train at the very place where no one would see me, Dinner then the whole process again in repeat. It's tiring, to be honest.

But then one day. I found another training center, where they train mixed martial arts. I guess it's a gym? I never went to the gym before and I think I never saw a gym like this before. but anyways regardless of my own mental and physical health, I still train to get stronger. I still think of my family from where I came from. Especially my parents who would be very worried about me. Mother, Father if you hear me, I am alive and still kicking. 

I guess you can say life got lonely. Without people to trust it's hard to find a home again. A real home. People who I love and I can trust are gone in an instant. I hope that they're all okay. 

Even my cat and dog I hope they're alright.

I wish I could let go, but it's really hard for me. Please someone let me go home. please help me. I just want to go home, And I'm tired, Someone wake me up if I'm sleeping because this life is a nightmare that I want to run away from.

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05/01/2023