𝕹𝖔𝕭𝖔𝖉𝖞 𝕷𝖎𝖐𝖊 𝖄𝖔𝖚-Hunter Sylvester

2

I Pulled into the school Parking lot Right Next to  Black shiny dodge Charger. The car caught my attention making me slowly get out of the car. It was A lot like the car my father used to drive. A Black sleek dodge charger. the memory of my dad taking me rided going as fast as he can while rocking out to Fade To Black - Metallica. That has been my favorite song ever since. 

Before i walked up to the doors of my highschool, i Played The day that never comes- Metallica and Slipped on my earbuds. As i Pulled open the door of the highschool walking through, Everyone stared at me. Some girls looking at me in awe, Emo girls looked at me in disgust, Other popular girls waved at me and giggled, And the nerdy boys were drooling.

I walked over to my locker and placed my bag in when i felt someone behind me. i quickly looked around but no one was there, with a sigh i shut my locker door with a slam and jumped, luckily holding in a scream. there stood robbie waiting for me.

"Jesus robbie, you scared me!" i held my hand on my chest and closed my eyes.

"sorry" He replied weakly looking ashamed.

"No robbie, its ok dude" i smiled as i turned to walk to my first class robbie followed with a big smile walking a little slower than me. people gave us weird looks, girls gave me disgusted looks that i would even situate myself with robbie, but i diddent really care. he was nice and diddent like me just because i was popular. and unlike other people he wasnt scared to talk to me because i was popular.

I felt robbies gaze on me so i turned to look at me and he was wearing a dumbfounded Expression

"what?" i asked at robbies big smile. 

"oh i just usually dont here pretty popular girls calling people dude. I also dont see popular girls talking to people like me" robbie says kinda glumly. I look at robbie with guilt. i wasnt like alot of other girls, but them bing bitchy assholes made me feel shit because they made it our sterotype.

"Well, im a person, just like you. just because im popular doesnt mean im any different or any better than you" i smile down at robbie placing a hand on his shoulder. as he looks up at me and blushes. robbie was like a little brother ive never had.

"thanks Cassidy" he smiles. i smile back but my smile slowly fades when i realizes what he just called me.

"Call Me Casey" with a smile i turn and head to my first class.

As i walked to my class i stopped at a corner waiting for kids to pass when a pair of hands gripped my waist pulling me closer to a rock body. 

"hey Babe" skip whispered in my ear softly. i chuckled uncomfortably as i removed his hands my from my waist and turned to face him.

 "heyy skip"

"watcha doin?" 

"heading to class" i gulped and tried to walk away when he pulled me closer by my hand

"no comeon..Stay with me.." he said in a real soft voice

"no skip i gotta go to class. im sorry" i said pulling out of his grip and walked to class

"I love you" he shouted after me which i left unanswered. i Shook my shoulders trying to shake the feeling of uncomfortable

Time Skip: Lunch

I Stand near the lunch room entrance waiting for my friends- or..the people i hang with.

"Hey Girrl" Michelle came up with 2 other blonde girls i diddent know

"you look cute" she said gleefully. i looked down at myself 

"o-oh you really think so?" Michelle then looked at me slightly annoyed but kept her fake smile

"uh-y-yes" she said as the other girls giggles quietly behind her which made my smile fade.  us 4 girls all went up to get food which was a corndog, tater tots and a salad. We all took our trays and went down to find a place when we slowed down near a table. 

a girl was sitting there. she was very pretty in my opinion. She had long Black curls and was wearing a red sweater. she slowly looked up at us giving us a look asking if we were gonna sit down. I gave her a warm smile which she caught and softly returned before looking down. Michelle made a weird face at us before continuing walking while the other blonde girls giggled.

I gulped uncomfortably as i followed the girls not meeting the girls gaze. It kinda pisses me off when they treat people like their better, but it really pisses me off when they do it with me around because it makes me feel like im a part of it when i really dont wanna be at all

We settled at a empty table near the jocks..Near skip. As the girls all starting eating, i decided to pickup a corndog and was about to take a bite

"your not actually gonna..Eat that..Are you?" michelle asked me with a dusgusted voice, all the girl eyes were on me. i qukicly put it down.

"oh no, cafeteria food is..Bleh" i gulped and stared at my food as the girls exchanged glances

"no- Its not the food its just....well..yk. Our bodies are just.. a little bit different from yours so you might just wanna stick to the salad"

"And even than.." one of the blonde girls said before pretending to gag herself. I stared at my food before tears watered my eyes. i looked down and squinted my eyes so imagining i was in a different place "why does this have to be so hard.." i whispered to myself as tears dripped onto my tray. With that i quickly got up and ran out of the cafeteria, almost everyones eyes were on me as i tried to quite my sobs

"Babe!" skip grabbed my hand and looked at me concerned 

"are you ok..?" he chuckled. 

"skip..We gotta break up..ok?" i said arubtly not even expecting it to comeout

Skips eyebrows furrowed before replying.

"w- what? no but- your popular..im a jock..we belong together.." he said quietly anger rising in his voice.

"I dont wanna be popular anymore.." i said tears streaming. i quickly ran to the bathroom and cried leaning my hands against the sink before looking up at myself in the mirror infront of me. 

Mascara was running and my eyes and cheeks were puffy red. i sniffled trying to see my pretty face without all the makeup on, before i eyed the toilet behind me in the mirror.

(A/N: Warning. this part contains graphic details of Self harm/Dieting/Body Issues. So Trauma Warning, Skip if you must. 

I gulped before turning around to the toilet and getting on my knees. I slowly take my 2 fingers and stick them down my throat, deeper and deeper untill i couldnt breath. I Gagged myself untill my stomach Lurched. I continued to Gag myself trying to make myself throw up. My Vision soon became blurry as tears blocked my vision. i cried knowing this is what i have to do, the pain in my stomach growing and growing. i felt myself falling, so i gripped the sides of the walls of the bathroom trying to stand up but ended up immediately falling backing down, hitting my head against the bathroom stall.  The pain in my head slowly slowed down as well as my vision. i felt myself falling but couldnt stop myself or make myself sit back up so i just let myself fall untill my vision went completely black.

Michelles POV:

"I wonder where cassidy went." Olivia said as we walked into the bathroom

"Probably crying somewhere" we all giggled as we started checking my makeup in the mirror.

"Oh i look so good today" lillian said as she ran her fingers through her hair cocking her head. i smiled at her and nodded

"you really do" i laughed as i licked my lips doing poses in the mirror.

"OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!" i looked at Olivia making a blood curdling scream and pointing to the floor. i looked at her confused.

"Ohmygod What?!" i turned to where she was pointing My eyes widened as i screamed as well