Dear Past Trinity,

        I honestly have a lot to say to you. I look up to you so much. More than you think. I think about you constantly. I try to retrace my steps to help me get a better understanding of ; Why? How? When? Who? What? ; Why is it so hard to be like you? Why can't I go back to my old ways? Why can't I be as happy as you? Why can't I be as nonchalant as you? Why? Why? Why? How am I supposed to stop for gas when I'm scared of someone saying "hello"? How am I supposed to go out and not care what others think about me or feel for that matter? How can I let someone do me so wrong? How can I not love myself? How can I not want to get up and do anything today? How? ... like Seriously How? When did you throw in the towel? When did you stop loving yourself? When did you stop caring about your mental health? When did you start bashing yourself? When did you grow anxiety? When did you become shy? When did you become a introvert? When did you let anyone do you however, whenever? When? .. Huh ? When? I'm Tired Of Askinng ! Who hurt you? Who let you down? Who took you for granted? Who left you and caused you to have abandonment issues? Who THE FUCK did it? What did u do to yourself? What did I do with PAST TRINITY? You're buried so deep I don't think you will ever be confident enough to come back out. I don't even like to hear the name Trinity, I hate being called Trinity because I'm not TRINITY anymore. I miss you . I MISS YOU OKAY? I'm tired ! I Give up ! My Chest Is Heavy ! I Have A Knot In My Throat ! Because ... why? Like why? I miss you and I want you to come back. I Just Don't Understand Why?