Dear Sehun,
I'm very tired while I write this. My eyes burn and my body aches to rest. My heart though, my heart is aching for another reason. I know what you're thinking, "Hyung go to sleep if you're tired." And I will, I promise I'll rest very soon but right now I need to write for you.
Sehun, I know when you get this, you'll be very angry at me. You'll feel betrayed and you'll possibly even hate me but that's okay. I still love you. Maybe one day you'll understand this letter. Understand the pain I feel staying here. Don't get me wrong, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have stayed as long as I did. I don't know how to explain this aching in my chest besides - it hurts, a lot.
We fell like two stupid teenagers, drunk from a party they weren't suppose to be at. We loved like the sun loves the moon. So far, so different but yet so close. Every night, I would come out and you would let me, tell me to breath that you would hide away just for me. Because Sehun, you are a sun. Radiant, beautiful and warm. Everyone loves the sun. The moon, when the moon comes out at night, everyone retreats into their homes. Hiding from what the night brings. No one likes the moon.
We loved as much as two stupid teenagers could. Short but beautiful.
So Sehun, don't be sad. Don't be mad or hurt by this. I promise I love you. We're just two different people, you the sun whom everyone loves and me the moon whom everyone hides from.
And maybe this doesn't make sense because to be honest, my words are jumbled up. I can't find the words to explain how I feel.
I'm a coward to put it bluntly.
I'm a coward. I'm taking what people call the coward's way out. And maybe I am. So by this point of the letter I am feeling very sleepy. I don't want to continue but I feel obligated to.
Sehun it wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's but my own.
You're sleeping so soundly now, the soft flicker of the lamp hitting your face making your skin look paler than you are. The way your chest rises and falls comforts me because I know you're alive, that you're okay. While I am not.
I'm happy you stayed with me as long as you did, hopefully one day when you grow older, wiser and more understanding you'll understand the meaning of this. Understand why I did this.
Why I am leaving like this.
I can barely keep my eyes open now. I wish to tell you I love you but my body feel weak and really it's a hassle to continue this.
Don't worry Sehun, I'll be resting now.
I'm okay. I promise.
A/N (explaining): basically Luhan is tired because he took pills and bam he dead
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mianhae all ~ T^T...i screwed everything tsk tsk tsk and it's too short ! really sorry....
I will delete this..its too embarrassing *^*
