You asked me if Imeant it

Do you mean it

There's a moment you know when you love them. It's not easy for people with bipolar disorder to find love and be in love but I fell in love. I fell in love with the moment he said he would never let me fall and he just said it again to me after I almost fell on the ice I'm terrified of. The last time I was here I cracked my skull open. I shouldn't even be out of bed but here I am skating at sectionals so we can place at Regionals. After everything that's happened in the past week, I should not be here but here I am.Our tango got us in the first place but I didn't feel amazing, My boyfriend hates my guts but still wanted to skate. That had to mean something right? Wrong! He wants nothing to do with me. I know he's mad, he has every right to be mad. I did throw a rager in his room but I wasn't myself. I was dealing with mental health issues. I was stressed out more than I let on. I felt as if I was going to let Justin down. He thought we could do the Olympics and win but I don't know. It freaked me out. Kat nodded as he said they should do the lift and gilded with him into a triple axle. After they went into the overhead lift. Kat tried to balance and looked down leaning too far to the left and fell. Justin realized this and grabbed her waist to let her down.Justin set Kat down balancing her and looked " you okay ?" He said. Kat nodded " yeah thanks " she responded. Justin looked at her " told you I would never fall " Kat stared blankly at him for a minute or two before she snapped out of it "You asked me if I meant that I loved you and I said I didn't know. But I did know. It was the first time you told me you would never let me fall. I'm sorry I put you through all this and had to deal with the fallout of my mania but I do love you, Justin". Justin looked at her " fuck you " he said walking away upset.Kat put her guard on walking out fast after him " You do not get to act like that !" she yelled at him and walked to the nearest handicapped bathroom locking the door. Her breathing was shaky as she took her skates off and got her medication trying to take it but dropping it all over the floor " dammit !" She said crying letting the tears pour out. Nothing was going right for her. She had just confessed her love to Justin and what did he resound with?' Fuck you ' like that's going to hurt a girl's ego. Kat wasn't normal in any way. These types of things didn't come easy to her and she was scared of What would happen. She took deep breaths but nothing would happen " screw it, " she said and took her left arm out of her sweater when a knock came. She chose to ignore it and was about to bite when she heard her name being called " Kat open the door ". It was Justin who said her name but she just wanted to feel better. She didn't answer him but his banging got more consistent " Katerina Natasha baker open this door right now! You better not be biting yourself or so help me I will drag you out of here! " he almost yelled. Kat rolled her eyes, that was not her middle name at all or even close to her middle name. She opened the door looking at him " that's not even my middle name dumbass " she said to him. She was upset with him but he didn't seem to care " well yeah I am but I'm not about to let you have a panic attack in the bathroom and bite yourself so let's go " he said, grabbing her arm gently so as not to hurt her and putting it back in her sweater. He walked inside the bay room and picked up her pills and bag. Kat just stared at him " what do you want Justin? You told me to go screw myself now you're here? What do you need ?" She asked him. But she didn't react fast enough because now she was pinned to The door with Justin pinning their hands together " well Kat one you can't just drop the bombshell you love me like that with Leah and Gabe right there. Two I know you're sorry but you hurt me a lot. I had no idea you were struggling and I would have helped you, Kat. I know you didn't want me to see you differently and I don't. All I see is the girl I fell in love with a year ago when she had sex with me and left ghosting me. And third Kat I don't see you as a mentally ill person. I see you as the amazing skater who had a freak accident in this very place and who has overcome more than enough shit in a lifetime. I see the girl who I'm in love with as well " Kat stared at him softly " I'm sorry I hurt you Justin " he nodded as he kissed her deeply holding her face as he still had her against the door. Kat smiled feeling him and kisses him softly rubbing his cheek as their heads touched. " let's go back to the hotel you had a long day today, " he said and took his hand as they left going back to the hotel. When they arrived Kat had other plans, Justin had just unlocked the door when Kat pulled him in for a deep kiss moving her hands under his jacket and feeling his warm abs. Justin looked " Kat, are you sure? You just had a panic attack and I don't want you to have another one " he stated and Kat nodded " I'm sure " she said as she was begging to take his shirt off him. One by one their clothes disappeared and jay pushed him back on the bed as she took her strapless bra off and kissed him hard. As she moved over and flipped with Justin her phone started to ring loudly," it's fine it can wait '' she said but it kept ringing so she picked it up " what ? " she asked not expecting it to be the Idaho police station and hear Serena's voice. " kat... Can you come to get me the neighbor called the cops on mom, Kat please I'm scared there going to call CPS'' Kat could hear the worry n her sisters and sat up" okay I'm on my way just stay there " she said, and put her coat on and hung up '' I need to go get Serena, my mom is in jail for assault" she explained and looked at him. Justin looked at her " whoa, do you want me to come with you?" Kat shrugged and looked at him " If you want you can, my family is not normal though " she explained to him and looked as he just chuckled " yeah well my family isn't perfect too. We all have crazy families " he said and took her hand leaving with her to solve family issues together.