Ryder

~5~

Warning ⚠️: This chapter contains fainting and eating disorders so if that bothers you please be aware. I'm sorry for anyone going through this, I totally understand how that feels and I hope you all are doing okay.
Best of love ❤️ -Saturn :)

Sofia~

It's 5:30 AM Mari and I are on our way to the tournament, it's not to far so we didn't have to drive a lot which was nice.

When we got to our court I asked one of our outsides Teresa to do my hair, she's quite literally the best at it ever. I ask her for two braids connecting into a ponytail and she finishes just before our coach yells at us to start warming up. Me and Mari pair up and we start with passing, then setting, then move onto peppering.

"Alright Captains coin flip!" I hear Coach Jack yell. Mari and Sam went up and won so we got first serve. We got into hitting lines for a bit then the game begun!

The Ref tossed our team the ball and I started off the game. I started the game with my classic jump float and then it continued from there. The matches were super close we barely won the first match. 27-25. The second match they won with 26-24. They won the coin tossed so they served. They aced us 4 times in a row. Coach Jack and all my teammates kept screaming "side out!" Until Coach finally called a timeout. After that time out I was pumped and furious.

I watched as the ball hit the net, balancing for what felt like minutes, but in reality was barely seconds. The balled finally tipped over on our side and Bixby dived for it immediately. She finally had gotten it up! This was it! This was our chance to score! Shit. THE BALLS GONNA HIT THE FREAKING NET. Wait, Sofia calm down. You know what to do here, just do it.

I bend down one knee on the ground the other up, almost as if I was going to propose. I wait till the ball comes off the net and pass it back into play, it goes high and straight up. Shit! Did I hit it to close to the net?

BAM

I hear the ball slam onto the ground. MARI YOU ANGEL!

"LETS FREAKING GO GREAT JOB MARI" I say standing back up.

"NAH SOF THAT WAS ALL YOU! WHAT A FREAKING PASS!" I chuckle at her response.

"THATS MY SIS WHOOOO!!!" I hear my brothers voice yell from the crowd. What was he doing here? Didn't he have work? I turn around to look at him in the bleachers and see Ryder next to him. Wtf. Why does he look so majestic in just a hoodie and jeans. I see him clapping with the rest of the crowd, he gives me a little smirk. Sadly my thoughts get interrupted when I hear coach yelling at me to come back. I run back to my rotation and the game starts up again.

After a lot of constant back and forth, it's 14-13 we're up 1. The noise around us is like a fever dream, I feel like I'm hallucinating. Coach is yelling at us to side out, I'm putting numbers behind my back with my fingers, I don't even know what I'm doing at this point. The other team serves and Bixby gets a perfect pass, I backest it to Teresa and she hits it. They unfortunately were able to return it. This time Val makes the pass, I feel like time is going in slow motion. I feel like I have hours till the ball gets to me. So I use this to my advantage. I have 3 options here, backest to Teresa again, but they have a passer set up perfectly if she hits it, so that's a no. Okay next option, I have Amelia, she's not the strongest hitter though and I know they could get a good dig on that, but I can't set to Mari again because that's where they have their blockers set up. Shit. What should I do? Wait... there's not only 3 options.

Swish... thump thump thump.

Everyone stared in awe for again what felt like minutes but was probably only 2 seconds, until the crowd went wild! I had done it. I had won use game point, no I take that back. WE DID IT! Somehow I had managed to fool them with a lefty setter dump! All my teammates swarmed around me while the crowd was screaming the world swirled and swarmed around me until I felt like I was falling. I see Ryder running towards me happy one second then scared the next. I wonder why? That's when my world faded into black...

Shit. Where am I? I push myself up from the bed but then fall immediately back down. Ow.

"Oh good dearie you're awake." I hear an older lady with a soft quiet voice say.

"Where am I?"

"You fainted after your game don't you remember?" Bitch I just fainted how am I supposed to remember. Don't be rude Sofia even if it's just in your head she's just being nice. But actually, I kinda do now that she mentions it.

"Oh yeah.. I made the game point then fainted right?"

"Yes dearie and do you know why that is?"

"No not really.. over stress maybe?"

"Well dearie, it seems you're not eating enough." Oh. I wave of depression came over me. Shit. I can't let my brother find out or he'd freak. He'd probably quit everything to make sure I was okay. Like I love him but he over worries about me.

"Oh um, I've just been stressed and kinda forgot to eat the last couple days I guess haha. Oops silly me I'm such a scatter brain sometimes." Obviously that was not true. I ate yesterday at Mari's house but couldn't hold it down so I had to go to the bathroom right after and get it out.

"Dearie what's your name?"

"Sofia."

"Well Sofia, I can tell by your medical history that this has been an ongoing thing." Shit, she can do that?

"Oh."

"So Sofia is there something else you want to tell me?" No not really but you basically already know.

"Yea.. I guess I've just gotten into a bad habit of not eating." Not all I could say but true enough. Honestly, I know I'm bigger then all the other girls on my team, and seeing as I've never had a good true boyfriend I've felt my self confidence get lower and lower. Sure guys have flirted with me, but I always just think it's because they think I could be an easy fuck. That's mostly the reason why I reject them because I'm scared if I go in with expectations of a relationship then I'll be disappointed in the end. Because who would want someone like me when they could have Mari, or any of the other girls on my team. That's why just having sex could work for me. Because if I go into something with that kind of mindset I definitely wouldn't get hurt.

"Okay... well, is there someone who lives with you or could take care of you to make sure you eat?" I hear her calm gentle voice say knocking me out of my trance and train of thought. I can't tell my brother or he'd freak.. and I can't tell Mari because she could see through all my lies and would be so disappointed I didn't tell her I'm anorexic, shit who else could I tell?

No. Don't tell me. He's my only option.

"Excuse me miss." A nurse from outside the room comes to mine. One of the men that brought you here is waiting outside the other had to go to work but he said to text him to say you're okay. Also a team of volleyball players are here and you're coach I think?"

"Oh.. okay umm. Thank you haha. Could you tell the man outside that's not with the volleyball girls that he can come in."

"Yes of course miss." The nurse answers leaving the room.

"I'm assuming the one coming in is the one I should tell about this?" The old nurse said. I shake my head in agreement and look away I don't need to see his reaction to this. Sure he barely even knows me so why would he care? But something about yesterday made me feel like he would. But maybe I'm just getting my hopes up..

Sorry for kinda an Angst-y chapter don't worry it will get better and more smut to cum! Haha!