Life Without You

Day 1

It's so hard to do anything. I can't even get out of bed. 

Did I fall that hard?

All I feel is pain.

What in the hell did I do that made everything turn into this

I'm so confused...

You know, it's so easy to say "Maybe we weren't meant to be" but once you say that to someone who loved and still loves you, that will damage them emotionally. I don't understand how guys can just go around and date girls left and right. No offense but in this generation, I have no hope for guys my age. Every guy I meet is just an asshole. OK LET ME CLARIFY THAT! Not all guys are assholes... But the guys I meet just disappoint me. You'll probably think that I'm just not meeting the right one yet, ok sure but seeing the guys I know, going around dating girls left and right, it's disappointing. 

He gave me everything... 3 years of a happy relationship... he turned it all into nothing... And it hurts because I can see him denying himself and because of the guys he sees around him, he wants to try what they're doing. AND. IT. HURTS.

But I kinda understand other girls when they say "that's not him". At first, I thought those girls were just ignoring the red flags... ok maybe some of them were but what they really meant is that they know that the person they love isn't capable of doing that but there's something that influenced their loved ones into doing it. I understand it all too well. 

I watched the guy who loved me the most acted like he never loved me at all.

I hate it!

I hate how he is lying to himself and it's so clear.

I hate how he's denying himself.

... I don't know if you people will ever understand... but this story is about me loving someone who might come back... or not... Hopefully, you'll continue reading my chapters because I'll be updating everyday.