I think I like/love you...

.5.

      They all had spent the day chilling around the house. The boys were happy with doing nothing for once and having a friend to do it with was even better.

      Jimin had wanted to speak with Jungkook but didn't have the chance yet. He wanted to talk to him alone, make his apology meaningful for being so cold but there was always someone with them. Until it was time for dinner. They had planned to eat in the garden as the weather was quite nice. A few things were still missing from the table and Jimin saw this as his opportunity to talk to the youngest.

"Jungkook-ah? Would you mind giving me a hand?"

The smiled at him, standing up, happy that Jimin had asked for his help. Once they reached the kitchen, he looked at him.

"What do you want me to do Hyung?"

"Well first, I'd like to speak to you."

"Is something wrong Hyung?" The younger looked ,at him with worry in his eyes. Jimin thought he looked cute. But that was not the moment to think about that.

"No, no, nothing's wrong. I actually wanted to apologise. I wasn't the most welcoming and I'm sorry for that. You didn't do anything and I was cold to you when I was mad at the others. So once again, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." He looked down, feeling guilty about his behavior. 

The younger smiled so brightly that Jimin actually felt is heart skip a beat.

"It's fine Hyung! There's no need to apologize. I wasn't mad or anything so it's fine, really."

"That's good to hear, and about what you said yesterday when you left, please, don't ever feel like you're being a burden okay? That was not the case and it never will be."

"Alright Hyung, but you seemed fine today, are you not mad at Hyungs anymore? Is everything okay now?"

"Yes, I talked to them. You know, they are the nicest people I know but they can be a bit much sometimes. I'm glad that they're willing to help me but they were pushing me yesterday and I didn't really appreciate it."

"I see, well I hope everything is okay then. And if you need help, feel free to ask me Hyung, I know we barely know each other but sometimes a stranger's opinion if what we need."

"Thank you Jungkook-ah. Although I'm not sure if I can talk to you about this..." He looked at the younger realizing how what he had said sounded like. "I mean, not that I don't want to! Trust me! But it's just... I guess I feel embarrassed talking about my sexuality with some-" He cut himself, widening his eyes at what he had just blurted outin his rambling.

"I mean... I...."

Jungkook smiled sweetly at him.

"It's okay Hyung. I understand wat you mean, you don't have to feel ashamed or embarrassed though. Everyone can be confused at some point in life and it's okay if you haven't found yourself yet. It took me awhile before realizing who I was or what I liked to do. If you ever need to talk about this, know that I'll be here to listen, I went through it so I would know haha."

"Thank you Jungkookie, I will think about what you said. I'm glad I actually talked about this with you."

"You're welcome Hyung. We should go back now or the others are going to worry."

Jimin nodded and they took what they needed before going back. They smiled at the others and Jimin discretely nodded at his friends as if saying everything was fine now. 

They all hate happily, laughing occasionally and Jungkook was glad he had met them. They were all still somehow strangers but he felt comfortable with them. They were so kind to him and he was really happy that he was getting along with everyone. He was still a bot nervous around Taehyung though. He was the only one who knew that he was actually a camboy and he didn't know how  to feel about that. 

He was not ashamed of what he was doing in the confine of his room, he actually loved it, pleasuring himself and others as they were watching, you could say he was quite an exhibitionist and he knew that many, many people watched him. But what he never expected was for a celebrity to know him or worse, than that, to meet said celebrity in real life and befriend him.

He knew the man was sincere when he sais that he wouldn't tell his friends but he was still a bit scared that he would blurt it out in the heat of a moment. Just because Taehyung was a fan of him didn't mean that the others would accept his hobby. Specially as celebrities, it wouldn't do them any good  if the press found out they were hanging out with a camboy, and a gay one at that. It would ruin their reputation. 

Now that he was thinking about it he felt really nervous. If Taehyung had recognized him, it meant that anyone who watched his lives could. And what if they saw him with one of the boys? It was all too risky.

He was feeling a panic attack coming so he quickly excused himself to the bathroom before running away. Once in the room, he made sure to lock the door before watering his face, trying to breath calmly. It was definitely not the moment to have a panic attack, but this one seemed persistent and he had to sit on the floor as he was getting dizzy.

The boys had started to worry. Jungkook had been gone for longer than needed and they started to think that something was wrong with him.

Yoongi decided to check on the boy before anyone else could say anything. Once in front of the door, he knocked softly.

"Jungkook-ah? Are you okay?"

After not getting an answer he knocked again, louder.

"Jungkook?" He was starting to worry. "Open the door please."

Inside, the younger was trying to make himself look presentable. He was feeling a bit better but he hadn't realized that he had taken too long. 

He finally opened the door.

"Sorry, Hyung. I think I'm getting sick. I should go home..."

"It's alright, you just had me worried for a moment. I'll drive you okay? You need to rest. Let's say goodbye to the others and go."

Jungkook followed him silently back to the others. 

"Guys?" They all looked at Yoongi and Jungkook who was hiding behind him. "I'm taking Jungkook home, he is not feeling well."

"Alright Hyung." They all smiled at them but couldn't help the look of worry crossing their face. They hoped the younger would be fine after a good night of sleep.

With that, both boys left to Jungkook's home.