Facing His Demons

I deserve Her

Ren had mentioned Gorya needed rest for at least a day before he would even consider she could have visitors. As Gorya's mom was leaving, she handed him his precious bundle. "Son," She told him. "Gorya's father and Glakao would be visiting within the week." Thyme nodded his head and smiled at his Mother-in-Law. That's right! He should tell Tia she's an aunt and his own mother. It was just them now. Gorya, Kamon and him. Ren had moved her into a different room after having the baby. Thyme opened the recovery room door. He saw Gorya was resting on her side. While watching as his daughter let out a small yawn, he moved closer to the bed and sat beside Gorya. He placed the baby between them.

He felt exhausted after the last two days but complete as he watched his two important girls under his watchful eyes. He would make another vow. Should anyone try to harm Gorya or their daughter, he would have no choice but to use violence. He glanced down at his daughter. She would never be put through what he put Gorya through when they first met. Thyme leaned over to brushed Gorya's hair away from her eyes, he smiled down at the love of his life, his wife, and the mother of his child. Gorya slowly opened her eyes and saw Thyme, their baby girl beside her on the bed. "Good morning, beautiful." He replied, making sure Kamon was in Gorya's reach. Gorya touched Kamon's stomach. Kamon, unexpectedly, grabbed her mother's finger and held it. She couldn't help but laugh. Physical just like her Father. Gorya noticed Thyme was clueless.

She was so hungry, Thyme heard her stomach growl but she tried to ignore it, wanting to cherish this time with Kamon and Thyme. "Tell me what you want and I'll get it or have it delivered." He told her in a soft voice. Gorya shook her head as slightly as she could. Thyme signed and sat up. "You won't get your strength back without it, you know."

Gorya signed, frowning. "Just 5 more minutes and then I'll eat whatever you want." Thyme grinned. He could finally have her try Caviar! Thyme slowly removed himself from the bed to get to his phone. Thyme was in complete amazement with his daughter. Kamon wasn't a crying, fussy baby at all. Two hours prior, Kavin had dropped off a change of clothes for him. Thyme remembered he left his phone in his black corduroy jacket. He just wanted to have a day or two with his family. He had it stretched out on a hospital chair right near the mirror. With great hesitancy, Thyme approached the mirror. But his old self didn't appear. Gorya and Kamon rested for another few minutes. In his imagination, Thyme could hear his old self. "The happiness you feel won't last."

Thyme knew he had to be smart. Whatever disagreements between Gorya and him, at the end of the day, they would get over it because they did love each other. His violence self was in the passed. He wanted his daughter to be better then him. Thyme gave a slight pout. "What you said for the last two days...some of it might be true. I hate myself for how Gorya and I met, everything I put her through." He began to say while running his hands through his hair. His phone forgotten. "But you know what? Your wrong. Gorya forgave me, forgave the F4. Want to know something else? She's always been on my mind. Her safety and happiness come before anything else! Okay, fine, we've both made mistakes. But Gorya was the only one brave and courageous enough to stand up to me. I love her for that. I love her for showing me the path I was headed was the wrong one. I've made plenty of mistakes and I hurt her when I didn't mean too. You are so wrong...I'll never get tired of Gorya. My daughter is a gift! I have and will never force myself on her either!" Younger Thyme stared at him. Thyme continued. "Gorya choose me. I deserve her! I understand that now. Will I ever know what or even when she first saw something in me worth taking the risk? No, but I know her kind heart. It's Until death do us part. I need to free my self hatred! It's who I am now that counts! Those women are my whole world!" With that, his mind cleared. He was no longer plagued by images of the past.

Thyme reached into his jacket, smiling. He was ready to order caviar when Gorya stretched in bed, slowly sliding up on the mattress all the whole placing their daughter on top of her. "Thyme, could you order eggs for me?"

Thyme turned and glanced at Gorya. One day he would have her try Caviar but for now whatever she wish for, she would receive. Thyme would find a restaurant that had it. He had a happy memory when he apologized for a stunt he did. On her omelette, he wrote an, 'I'm sorrie' with ketchup. This time he would write, 'Congrats Mommie'.

For the rest of the day, Thyme held his little girl in his left arm, staring down at her smiling. He couldn't stop cradling her. Gorya and he created this new life! She was a part of her and him. It's proof of what they really meant to each other. Gorya gave him her bright smile. The same one the first time she wished him a happy birthday when he lived next door to her. Kamon let out a cry. Thyme tried rocking her. Was she hungry? "Ok daddy, can you ask a nurse for formula for her?"

Thyme couldn't stop the smile from forming from Gorya's comment. He was a Dad. It all seemed like a perfect dream. Looking through his phone, he kept looking at restaurants. Finally one that stated they served eggs. Ren knocked on the door, a bottle of formula in his hand moving towards Gorya and Thyme. "You'll be needing this, Thyme." He replied with a grin, unable to stop himself from teasing his best friend. 

Thyme eyed his best friend with a warmed smile. Ren had to interject. "Your not going to make silly promises to Kamon, are you? Like when she finds her first love, you'll give him plenty of tests to see if he's worthy of her?" Gorya stared up and witnessed his smile. "You know, Ren, that's a great idea!" He replied, taking another glimpse of their newborn daughter. Ren smiled at his both of his friends antics. Before leaving the room, Ren lowered his hand to Gorya's head. Seconds before he left, he touched Thyme's shoulder.

Gorya sighed, knowing the man she fell in love with and married. "You better not think of threatening any boys that will go near her." Thyme glanced up, smirking. "I'll always be her back up. Besides, the guy who falls in love with her might need to have a declaration of war before anything, Gorya." Thyme eyed her and Gorya sighed before rolling and blinking her eyes. Ren closed the door, grinning as he walked down the hallway. 

Thyme realize something while watching Gorya with their daughter. Life isn't going to get much better than this. He was wealthy before he was even born, then he made friends with Ren, Kavin, and MJ. Mira and Lita even. But the moment Gorya kicked him was the most important moment. She was able to take a spoil brat and make him a man. Thyme knew he wouldn't be returning home without his girls.

Finally when Ren gave them the okay; Tia, Kaning, Kavin and MJ all visited, Kaning was the first of them to hold Kamon. Followed by Tia. Naturally Kavin couldn't resist teasing Thyme. "Out of the four of us, who knew the youngest, immature and hothead would be the first to be married and now," He added while he moved closer to Kaning to view Kamon. "Obviously, be a family man. Will wonders ever cease?"

Thyme laughed before wrapping his arm around Kavin's shoulders, pulling him gently away from Kamon.  Tia smiled as she caressed her niece's face. This little girl will never have to wonder if she was loved. It was all around her. She couldn't wait to show her off in trips she would take. Japan, Italy, America...