Poems for Deaf Ears

Living with Mental Illness

Living with Mental Illness.

One screams at me do it,

The other screams don't,

I'm conflicted and scared,

This isn't my life,

Maybe,

Maybe I should lay back down,

Sleep for a bit,

This world can wait,

It doesn't need me today,

One will say,

"But what about every thing you'll miss"

The other says I might mess up,

I stay in bed,

Wide awake and crying,

This world isn't how I thought it would be,

Not with this depression,

Nor this anxiety.

School is too much,

I can't get out of bed,

My parents are concerned,

I can't deal with what's in my head,

The doctors said medicine,

Therapist said more,

More therapy,

Less thoughts,

Go to sleep earlier,

Try to do things you like,

Get angry,

Get scared,

Go out more,

And stop being sad,

"How can I stop being sad when I can't control it,"

I ask,

No one answers.

This isn't my life,

I just want to go back to normal,

But it can wait one more day,

I think I'll go back to bed,

Sleep some more,

Stay with the thoughts inside my head.