This Is How I Feel...

Shy

When I first saw you I started to blush, I started to feel this sudden rush. Sweating like I was in a sauna, heart pounding so hard, can you hear it getting louder?!. I can sense my whole body feeling numb as I looked your way. Eyes caught in your gaze of stare, upset stomach that I can't even bare. Please, tell me you are not aware?! Do you even notice my weird presence, or perhaps you don't even care?! Are you sending me a negative feeling, I hope not Im probably just overthinking. Worrying about how you think of me or the way I look, my reaction to w|draw from any form of social interaction, is definitely number one in my book. Oh gosh, why do I get like this everytime this happens. Most people feel shy at least occasionally, buhh w| you I get like this on a daily. My self-consciousness tends to steer me a stray, do you think I'm pushing you away?!. I noticed you make your way towards me & somehow I lose you thru the crowd. I guess I doge the embarrassment this time, not having to feel fear of judgement or any form of rejection. A part of me figures you might know why do I run from you? Here I go, back in my head again, do I really have such a low self-esteem? Could you really like me for me? I pity myself against your vibrant self, your so interesting & yet also have a great mystery. I'm so unsure how we would eventually approach each other... So close buhhh yet so far away. I can sense whenever  your around, like seriously seeing you turns my frown upside down. I would count the hours, minutes & seconds on the clock, rushing it to ring the bell to jet out to your favorite spot. Would I have the confidence to talk to you one on one, NOPE not this time, silly of me to be so dumb. How could I be that one, what is so special to have your interest or heart? How can I be so outgoing w| others buhhh so shy & stuck when it comes to you? I know I want to talk to you, buhhh... This is how I feel ..