I lay on my bed & it's four in the morning. I think to myself. Why am I like this? I want to die. I don't want to die. It's not fair, but I have the choice. It doesn't hurt nor does it feel good. I'm confused. I'm lost. Do I need help? I think I do. No, I don't need help. I just want to sleep. I can't sleep. This music doesn't help at all. Nothing helps. Am I in a void? What am I doing here?
I'll just shrug it off, it's just me being an idiot.
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9:00AM
The alarm wakes me up. I don't want to get up. I go back to sleep.
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12:00PM
I wake up. I don't want to get up. I can't go back to sleep...I get up. I feel dirty. Let's go take a shower & go for a walk after. I go to the bathroom with a towel. I hang the towel & look myself in the mirror. Disgusting. I dislike every aspect of this person in the mirror.
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12:46PM
That was a somewhat nice shower. Let's go on a walk.
1:20PM
Someone comes towards me & greets me. I am bewildered. What does it want?
"Hello miss, I thought you were really cute. Could I get your number?"
Huh? He's asking for my number? This must be a joke.
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I give him my number.
"Sweet! I'll text you when I can."
We shake hands & talk for a little. He compliments my physical appearance. I blush. What do I do? I am easily flustered.
