Continues...
MEGAN
Door slammed. My heart skipped a bit.
I felt my heart pause.
"here is your drink," my travelling-housekeeper (Jamie) said.
I took a deep breath.
it was so deep that she turned and looked at me.
"Pardon me!" I muttered.
"Everything A-Okay with you boss?"
"I don't know. Jamie, what are your deepest thoughts about love lust and relationships?" I asked.
"May I?" she asked permission to seat.
"Please!" I responded. She took an empty chair next to me.
"I will start with a relationship. Well, that's a complicated route. Very misunderstood but it is simple. Just a journey of two people living together in love. just two people. Not three, not one either. It is a two-way street give and take commitment. We don't give or just take. We do both" she said.
"I hear you. What of lust then?"
"That is dangerous. But it isn't powerful, it is a dangerous yet weak feeling filled with emotions. No heart is involved but the mind"
"hmmm!" I muttered
"love? love is powerful Ms Pete. it would pull you with your head held high. it would control your feelings. love is strong, love it's
beautiful. love is heart-related, it is worth the wait. it is sure and relevant. it is overly intense and dominant. You can't cheat love, you can't break love, you can't hurt love. But you can do all that to people you love" she said.
I just nodded being deep in my thoughts.
"Have you ever fallen in love?" she asked me.
"I don't remember falling in love. I don't believe I know how it feels. People say they love me, I know what that means...that they love who I am as a rapper and as a famous girl, and how I look. So I don't usually question their love for me, because I know what it means or what it is."
She nodded "I hear you. I guess that makes it less complicated then!" she said.
"It was! until this moment. This person came into my life. They claim they love me and I'm scared because there is a part of me that believes them. I have no idea how to handle it because I don't date to love. But I allow my heart to be free. Now my heart isn't free; it is in a chokehold in love with this person. The bad part is that I have a boyfriend who proposed a long time ago. The confusing part is that she's a she, I'm not gay Jamie, but how I feel about this girl. Just her, I go gay in a split second. My womanly hormones react real quick. I know that I want her. I have feelings for this girl too, but it is very complicated"
"If we talk about the girl who was just here... I really understand the complication. Because I saw the attraction you're talking about. But I don't know her enough to detect if she really does love you. Why don't you give it a chance to know if what you are feeling is genuine? Because you are Megan, everybody loves you but who will still love you if you declare bankruptcy and stop doing what are you doing and go for a regular day job?"
She raised my concern.
"The only way to know if she's that person for you is to try this dating thing out. Watch her closely. You will know"
"Thank you, Jamie" she nodded and walked away.
I called Normani to talk to her. She told me to ease up my worry and let love take me places but I still had so much worry I couldn't do it.
I went to bed after a couple of hours. I still couldn't sleep because Y/n said goodbye. I picked up my phone and dialled her number to make a call.
Y/N
It was after midnight when I woke up from a call. Sky was deep in her dreams, resting her head in my arms. I checked the caller ID Thinking it was Stormy. I didn't expect it to be Megan, no. Not in my wildest dreams. I moved away from Sky.
