Hope World || JHS

4. Spaceship

Alora pov:

It was pretty windy today and my hair blew in the air. My hair reached up to my knees and I absolutely loved them. It's just that windy days, which are my favorite and my long hair. They don't go together.

I took a hair band from my bag and thank the lord that I found one. I gathered all my hair in one hand and tied my hair in a high ponytail.

As I walked towards the entrance of skateboard park, I hear the laughter of all the kids who are around our age. Laughter is said to be the best medicine, isn't it? Then why do I always see him smiling but never happy.

He was this sunflower that couldn't find his sun and I was assigned to become the light of his world.

I looked around for Hoseok once I entered the park and found him standing against a tree. He had changed out of his work clothes and was wearing a black hoddie with a pair of grey jeans.

His jeans reminded me of his heart.

He was looking down at his feet. He looked deep in his thoughts. His jawline was as sharp as a knife. He had a pretty face, no doubt. I wonder why he never had a girlfriend.....

He saw me looking at him so I quickly waved at him. I ran up to him, and asked if he knew how to skateboard.

"Yeah I do, I mean not all those fancy tricks but I do know how to move on it without falling and cracking my head open."

He tried to bring a smile on other's faces even when he didn't have one. He was a pure soul that life had tortured.

I laughed even though my heart felt heavy.

"I can have my moments. I like to see smiles on people's faces. At least this way I can give something god didn't give me."

As I looked into his eyes, I saw everything he tried to hide. In those two seconds, I saw a little boy on search of light. His eyes held this innocence that matched those of a five years old but these eyes had seen pain.

I knew, they had.

And then it was back. That shield of fake smiles that he wore to hide the pain that burned inside of him. He didn't want others to get burned so he stood in that fire alone.

I wanted to say something.

Anything.

But he beat me to it.

"If you don't mind me asking, when are your friends joining us?"

I knew I shouldn't have lied. I mentally face palmed myself as I wondered what to tell him. I looked like a deer caught in the headlights.

"Actually, they wouldn't be joining us. It's going to be the two of us only."

"Oh, ok. Want to see who can go higher?"

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After spending few hours on the ramp, we finally decided to stop.

We spotted a tree and decided to rest a while under it before heading back home.

"So Alora, if you don't mind me asking, why the sudden interest to become a lonely boy's friend? I mean I am not the ideal guy anyone would want."

It felt painful to know how he saw himself. He was a ragged soul and he knew it but what he didn't know was that he was also a pure soul that this world needed.

"I mean we did that project together and I did want to continue being your friend. It's just that a few family problems that came up and I couldn't focus on my social life. Also why wouldn't people want to be your friend. You are a great person, Hoseok. I know it and you should know it too."

He looked taken back when I was done ranting.

"Anyways. It is getting late. I think we should head home. We can meet up at the cozy coffee cafe around the block tomorrow to complete our assignment."

Once he agreed, we parted our ways.

I just hope we never have to do that for good.

As I walked back home, the stars was shining bright in the night sky. Hoseok was like that one star in the sky that shines alone. He stood apart from the others but didn't fail to bring light to others, even though he was the one who burnt at the end.

The coffee shop that we decided to meet at was a small family business owned by one of my father's friend.

They were really nice people and the food there also gave a homey feeling. It was one of my favorite places in the neighborhood.

The lights were switched off as I reached my house, so I breathed a sigh of relief and entered. It was pretty late so everyone would probably be asleep. However things weren't how I had expected them to be. The first thing I saw as soon as I stepped inside was my sister sitting on the couch. She was waiting for me.

Even though I was always jealous of her for her looks and her healthy relationship with our mother. She never failed to make me feel loved.

"Where were You, Alora? Do you have any idea how worried I was."

"I'm sorry, Somi. I was out with a friend. I will keep a better track of time in the future."

I lowered my head in shame for her. I wished her a good night and turned to leave.

I headed upstairs and popped myself on the bed once I reached the room. I grabbed my journal and was in the mood of writing a poem so I scribbled a few ideas on the side and began writing.

'If I had a spaceship,
I'd fly far away.
Somewhere, where
No one knows my name.
If I had a spaceship,
I'd fly far away
Somewhere, where
Sadness is just a word
And happiness is all we see.
If I had a spaceship,
Would you beg me to stay?

It wasn't the best, but I liked it. My heart felt so light every time, I poured my heart out in my journal.

That's the beauty or writing. Just pick up a pen and write your worries away.

My mind immediately wandered back to Hoseok. I don't know why but the thought of him no longer breathing made me feel so uneasy.

I felt like, alone with his breath even mine would walk away.

We weren't really close over these 11 years of school but we were friends. I could tell that to myself to not feel guilty. But honestly I was.

I was very guilty.

I never tried to become friends with him or even get to know him. He tried to make conversations when we were in middle school but I was too much of an introvert to even talk to others.

Maybe what they say is true. We only know the value of something once its gone.

I wanted to repent my mistake and the only way I do that was by changing his mind.

Jung Hoseok had killed himself and I have to save him.

From himself.

I knew it wasn't going to be easy getting him to open up. But I knew I had to save him. I would only be able to do that if he trusted me enough to communicate with me about his issues.

I had to know what was going on in that web called mind, he was trapped in.

A/n:

Hey lovelies!! How was the episode?

Hope you are enjoying the story so far....

Will Hoseok trust Alora and tell her about his issues? What happened to Alora that she was sad just like Hoseok?

Let's see....

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-Ashu_tae.