My life. I guess.

After i never went to Bebas house anymore. *At. All.*

So here we are. My grandmother Mary was upset at Beba because she said that. My mother Betty was also upset. So I'm sleeping then Beba leaves and never comes back or calls. Then a couple days later my dad calls just to say some bullshit about it. After hearing that I hated myself even more. Only if he knew what even happens at moms house.

This is where the whole plot twist and surprising things get told. And I'll be saying it fast to prepare it. Lol.

Piri's got an addiction to substances and so does Betty then Mary starts physically fighting with Jayde then Jayde and Kayla start physically fighting and in all of these processes piri and goldo were beating kaylani too then I started school and started getting bullied since kindergarten but then I got jumped by a bunch of boys. That's not even the worst cuzz my first grade teacher hit me.
Then I stayed in the same school where the same stuff happened until 3rd grade after that I went to a knew school to start a knew life for a kid. Then I meet this boy I'll name him lulu and he was a bully to other kids but I didn't know that then when I found out I stopped talking to him then me and him became an off and on friendship until him and his cousin invited me to a sleepover.

Which the worst thing imaginable happened to me. I am not saying what that is this time.

Then that happens but before the sleepover even happened or was thought of I tried to take my life and ended up in the hospital then a couple times after that I went in again and again and again till I got sent to a residential and starved myself in there then I ran all the way to the east side of town till the cops got me and brought me back to the residential, I stayed in that place for about 6 months but 4 of those months I ended up starving myself but on the second month of me not eating I went to the hospital because I passed our from dehydration and not eating then I came back and the and it was hot as moth balls outside and then omg and then I got sent home and then my grandfather died and that made me fall back into the worst mental state ever so I went in the hospital again and then I'd made a friend that passed but from a suicide so I got even more sad and omg this just doesn't ever get better I ended up in the hospital again and boy did that go fun because my dad outta no where wanted to visit me but golly he wasn't on the visiting list then when I called him to tell him that right and then.

"NAH you lyin to me mamaz." He said.

"No I'm sorry dad they said your not on the visiting list." I said.

"No your fukking mother took me off the fukking visiting list."

"Well maybe she didn't dad you never know.."

"NO DONT BE FUKKING STUPID USE YOUR COMMON SENSE MAMAZ. I KNOW YOU HAVE IT."

"..."

"You know what FUKK YOU AND YOUR MOTHER!"

"FUKK YOU TOO YOU ASSHOLE. THE ONLY PERSON THATS BEEN THERE AND ALL YOUVE BEEN DOING AND BEING A DEADBEAT DAD." I said as I then hung up the phone ran to my room and went in the bathroom. While in there looking at myself with hate and guilt I punched the mirror making my knuckles swollen. Then the nurse knocked on the door. And I opened it as they then said I had to step out my room cuz they already knew I hit something. Then they give me a bag of ice and I go to sleep. Then I get discharged and I come home for like 4 or 5 months and piri passes away on the living room couch because his body had given up on him..... I was with Betty at her new apartment when she got the call.

"Hello?" Betty said when she picked up the phone.

"Hi Ms.Betty we need you to come over to the hospital an-" but before the doctor could finish..... Betty screamed.

"IS MY SON OKAY?!"

"I'm sorry Ms.B, but we Need you to cal-" again Betty interrupts.

"IS MY SON DEAD?!!"

"yes Ms.B, I am sorr-"

"NOOOO. NO. NOOO.
NOT MY SON NOT MY POOR PRECIOUS BOY!!..."  she screamed as I stood there in silence. Crying. But in silence. I couldn't speak. I physically felt like I wanted to just drop to the floor and scream... but I couldn't. I had to keep my mom safe.

"NO NOT MY SWEET MIRACLE ANGEL WHYYY" 
She screamed again and then she grabbed her purse and went into the bathroom. I was so sad that the first person I'd called was Reagan. My bestfriend.. My big sister. And when I called her I couldn't talk. But she knew right away.

"It's okay sis.. it's gonna be okay.." She said as I cried harder and harder.

"He's gone sis he's gone.... sis he's gone I can't do this he's gone..!" I just kept saying he's gone.

"I know sis.. and your probably feeling the worst thing imaginable but I need you to breath okay... please." Reagan Said as she teared up too.

"I can't sis.... i.... *sigh* I'm broken..!!" I said while I started crying loudly.

"No your not sis I'm sorry he past but you can't be broken sis you can't." Reagan then started crying.

Then mom came out the bathroom grabbed the car keys and told me to go with her so we could drive to grandma Mary's house, and when we got there..... as soon I stepped into that house..... I felt.. hurt. In pain. I felt like my heart was in my stomach. I felt something in this house of grandma's was missing.... and it was him.... but again I have to tell myself to suck it up because everyone else needs help right now......