Random stuff I think about and stuff like that...

My mind 24/7

Literally no one, but you guys really know remotely what am really think about... I tell my mom some stuff... I dunno why I feel like I trust you guys more then my own family... Maybe it's because I know you guys can't really physically do anything to me... you could hurt me mentally, sure, but it's hard to do that to be tbh... And I just... do... trust you guys... so... here...

"I don't think this lump was here yesterday, and I don't think it's just a cyst... is this numbness diabetes? Is this even numbness or is it a trick of my mind? Why does my leg ache!? Om my gosh, a pimple, that could be a sign of SOMETHING, I'm sure...! Why does my throat hurt!? Is this what dying feels like? I don't think this headache is just stress and I don't think this itching is just a bug bite... Diabetes can make you feel anxious, or irritable... Am I losing weight? Am I losing my appetite? What if I just have a heart attack and die!? I don't think this trembling is caused by anxiety... STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT STUFF! Hunger Games... Hunger Games... Hunger Games... Ah! Why can't I focus! It's only my favorite thing in the world! I should google my symptoms again... Is it possible that I'm actually completely fine? Maybe I'm okay? It COULD just be stress... OH NO! No it's not! That pain might be CANCER! I HAVE to keep an eye out for new symptoms...! Can't oral cancer cause enlarged taste buds? SHUT UP, YOU STUPIS MIND! YOU AREN'T HELPING! I don't think I should eat dessert tonight... I can't enjoy anything... Why am I so restless? Am I fatigued cause I stayed up til' 1 last night or is it something else...? OH MY FUCKING GOD! WHY IS MY VISION HAZY!? I DON'T THINK THIS IS A PANIC ATTACK! THIS HAS GOT TO BE A HEART ATTACK! NO NO NO! I DON'T WANNA DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...!"