Forgiveness (complete)

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I didnt think I'd ever be a single parent five months after having mine and my ex-fiance's son. 

But since I am and I'm carrying our second baby. I've made sure that both my babies come before all else. 

my job knows that my son and future kids will come before my job and that I'll never put my job over my kids.

Since I had broken up with Jax and given Gemma her ring back I've spent so much time with Abel. I take him on little dates, I go for a stroll in the park with him, I take him to an open field with some shaded trees and I read to him.

At night I'll cuddle with him and most of the time I dont put him in his crib. I keep him right there with me. Since I'm pregnant I've gotten into a habit where I hardly roll around. I had done that when pregnant with Abel cause I didn't wanna risk rolling on my stomach. 

So I know I'll not roll over on Abel and suffocate him.

Today since I'm home alone cause Gem has Abel I had started doing some light house work and cleaning.

I had finished half way when someone showed up.

I stopped what I was doing and grabbed my gun before I peaked to see who it was.

when I seen Jax I put my gun away and unlocked the door.

"what can I do for you Jackson?" I asked

"I want to talk to you" he says

"talk" I replied

"I dont fill like airing my privacy with anyone that is being nosy" he says

I stepped back and allowed him in before I shut the door.

"take a seat." I say

"got any beer?" he asked

"nope, haven't done a beer run in a few days, and the guys drank me dry of the last case" I say

"they come here frequently?" he asked

"they are my friends. I am not fucking any of them. so dont even try that" I say

"I was just asking" he says 

"I can read between the lines and I've known you for a long time Jackson" I say

"why wont you call me Jax anymore?" he asked

"it was something I called you when I was with you. now I'll call you your full name" I say

"I miss you calling me Jax," he says

"Well, I miss a lot of shit. one being a faithful fiance" I say

his head drops.

"That was the biggest mistake I'd ever made," he says

"I want the honest truth on why you done it. not the pity horseshit you once tried to give me" he says

"I wanted to show you that you deserve better," he says

I sat down and shook my head.

"you were better. cause the life I had before you were shit. I was living in hell. then I moved here and met you and everything was going amazing. we were friends, a couple, fiance, and soon-to-be-married.. but you had that bright idea that I deserve better so you fucked raunch pussy. " I say

"what can I do to have you forgive me?" he asked

"it's not gonna be easy. and I won't forgive you within a week or two. what you had done was bullshit, and I didnt deserve you to do that to me before we were to marry. So what you have to do is something you'll have to figure out." I tell him

he nodded his head and wiped the tears from his eyes.