Okay so I'm not gonna do the whole date thing because this is fucking serious.
I got into a fight with my mom.
She beat me.
More than usual.
And everything hurts.
I stood up to her and called her out on her bullshit.
...which is probably a bad idea if you're dealing with a toxic narcissistic parent💀 so don't do what I did...unless you know what you're doing-
Cause I just broke down and spilled my heart and she punched the black outta me for that💀
So I hit her back and it broke out into a nasty fight. And you might be asking why and how this fight broke out.
I was doing the dishes and some of the heavy chores while my sister was taking care of my other sister (who is like...3 years old or something) and the little shit literally shat in the bathtub
Yes she shat in the bathtub💀
Literally💀
It took me an hour to clean it up then bath the kid, change her diaper and distract her with Cocomelon.
And by the time I was done with that my mom came home and yelled at me for the house being a mess. Bitch, I'm literally taking care of the kid YOU gave birth too💀
It's not my fucking fault that you're a fucking lazy retard.
So she yelled at me and I just snapped cause I wasn't having it today. I spilled my heart out about how I felt and she just went on about how she suffered for 5 years to take care of me and how I'm disrespectful and how my mental illnesses are just an excuse to do jack shit in the house.
Bro I swear to god I was about to beat that bitch up.
And I did💀
Well technically she beat my ass first but I broke her nose so that's something. I screamed and told her everything she did to me and my siblings.
From the way she'd bang my sister's head on the staircase to how she'd take her anger out on us just because she wanted to. The worst part is that she doesn't drink or do drugs so she knows exactly what she's doing. And she thinks it's okay because her parents did it to her.
I used to fear her growing up but the more I look at her now the more I realised how pathetic she is.
A mother that can't be there for her children emotionally. Disgusting.
I remember pretending to be an orphan😀
Those were basically the best memories of my life. Too bad they never lasted.
I can't believe I even wanted to bond with her boyfriend too. Ew.
And after an hour of us fighting she called me and cried in front of me. Telling me how much she loves me and how sorry she was and how she was never gonna do it again.
She broke down.
And to be honest...
I didn't feel bad.
I just watched her cry.
I didn't hug her back, I didn't forgive her and I never apologized for hitting her.
I just looked her in the eyes and told her she was dead to me and that I don't have a mother. I never did.
And that's the honest truth.
You can hate me for being cold but I can't take her bullshit. She's been doing this for years. Heck she could've killed me and she wants me to forgive her? Hell no.
Telling me that I'm no Christian.
Well duh of course I'm not. It's cause of people like my mom that I've given up on God.
If heaven is full of fucking retards and judgemental hypocrites then I'd rather burn in hell with the rest of the rejects.
I'm glad I stood up to her. I said what needed to be said. Maybe I was a bit too cold...maybe I wasn't. I dunno.
But I did the right thing.
The problem is....
I dunno where I'm gonna sleep tonight-
I guess I'll just stay with my uncle.
He's a drug dealer so he's chill. And that also means more underage smoking for me!
YAAAYYYYYYYY-
