You deserve me

Why chris why. Why matt why

"Did anyone else hear a scream?" Madi said getting closer to Chris. I wasn't gonna let that happen.
"Dude my stomach hurts so bad" I complained
"Oh you ok ry?" Chris walked away from madi and towards me.
"Yes just got a cramp." I smiled at him as the elevator doors opened. I saw Matt.
"Hey what took you so long?"
"Got lost" we both smiled at each other.
"Let's go to our room."
"Wait can we explore?" I asked hoping someone would agree with me.
"Fuck no!" Nick yelled "this shit is scary." I rolled my eyes at him
We went to our room and then went exploring.
"We saw two girls walking next to each other in white gowns and pig tails. I buried my face into Chris's arm. He hugged me. I could feel his heart beating.
"I'm leaving!" Matt ran away and everyone followed. We went back on the bus and all sat on the couch. I say I'm between Chris and Matt.
"Guys I have a feeling something happened."  I said. I was worried. I had every right to be worried.
"Why what happened?" matt asked curiously.
"We heard a loud scream in the elevator." Nick said.
"I'm going to the bathroom." Matt said getting up. I followed him.
"Hey Matt are you ok?"
"What yea I'm fine."
"Are you sure you seem distracted."
"Ry I'm fine." He siad. He put his hands around my waist. No butterflies. None at all. He kissed me nothing.
"Omg Matt what the fuck! I'm dating Chris!"
"We'll he's sure snuggly over there with madi." Madi was laying on Chris's chest he was playing with her hair. Tears formed in my eyes as I stared at them. Maybe coming on tour wasn't a good idea. As I was scrolling on TikTok I saw all the fan edits. I cried in my bed on the bus. I cried and cried and cried. Thai wasn't fair. I saw the curtain open. It was Chris.
"You ok?"
"Fuck off" I said grabbing the curtain and closing it.
"Riley? Why are you mad." I opened the curtain.
"Why am I mad? Why am I tucking mad. I went on my phone and pulled up a pic. "Wanna explain this chris? Cause I wanna know why you did this to me."  I started sobbing. " I don't deserve this." I was taking short shallow breaths in between each word. The picture was chris and madi kissing in the hotel lobby while I was in the bathroom.
"WHY CHRIS WHY?" I started crying like I have never before
"That's not me !"
"Then who is it, Matt?" I yelled everyone was looking at us.
"Stop looking at me, just stop!" I sobbed and tan in the bathroom. I slammed the door behind me and cried like I have never before.
"fuck you chris." Nick knocked on the door and walked in. Madi tried to walk in also.
"Go to hell you home wrecking bitch!" Nick slammed the door in her face and locked it. I didn't stop crying till 3 am everyone was asleep by then except Chris. Nick and I walked out and we went in out beds. When I walked back to my bed Chris ran up to me.
"Ry that wasn't me in the picture. I swear, I wouldn't do that to you." Chris starting tearing up.
"I need some sleep." I walked up to my bed and layed down. Think of what it could have been like? Where would it have gone? Why Chris why? Why Matt why?