How To Stay Afloat (BxB)

Chapter 120: Murderer

After school I go to a coffee shop with Lisa and Jessica. Jessica broke up with her boyfriend and is currently obsessed with tinder. I swipe a few times for her, making sure to secretly swipe for the ugly guys as well. And let's not forget the guy with the teacup collection. It's a match. I ship them.

I'm not exactly sure why there's also women in the app, but I just left swipe them for Jessica.

Lisa probably spent more time with Austin than Harry and Carla over the past month. She tells me that Matt, Austin, Nora and her hang out almost every weekend now.

They ask me a lot about my therapy and how my rehab is going. I'm not sure how much they know about what happened with Noah, so I pretend that the main focus of my stay was the drug rehab.

I'm never sure who knows and who doesn't. It's frustrating. But I actually learned not to be so embarrassed about what happened. It's not my fault and it doesn't define me.

Well. I'm still working on believing that fully, but I'm getting there.

Then there's the fact that Noah died and that everyone now knows that he's dead. It's still weird. It's really relieving and at the same time more than frightening.

I haven't really realized what it means that part of Harry's family believes that I killed Noah and fed his body to pigs. Until now, with a smoothie dripping down from where it was tossed on my head out of nowhere.

"You think you can get away with what you did? You're a murderer and you're going down, just wait." A male voice says to me as I gasp and blink a few times trying to see who did this through the waterfall of smoothie on my face.

Is- is that Noah? I quickly wipe over my eyes.

The voice sounded too similar to Noah's. As I look at the person standing before me I spot Noah's other cousin from his dad's side, no relation to Harry. I saw him at court, but since I only faintly remember that day I'm not completely sure.

I suck in my breath and hold it, frozen from the shock. Please don't let this be my new normal. Please make this stop.

"The truth will come out." He says to me.

I feel a punch to my stomach and wince in pain as I clutch my stomach and lean forward, holding my breath and biting my teeth together as the pain rushes through me.

"What the fuck?" Jessica shouts angrily and jumps up at the same time as the barista comes hurrying over.

Noah's cousin, I'm pretty sure his name is Zeke, grabs his friend's shoulder and runs out of the coffeeshop.

I try to breathe through the pain without groaning.

I feel Lisa's hand on my shoulder. "Shit. Are you okay Sammy?"

It's quite full in here. Everyone saw that. Everyone. There are also students from my school. Fuck me. Fuck this. Why? Why can't this finally stop?

I can hear some whispering around me and I still have no fucking clue how to react.

The barista guy says something to me about washing off the smoothie and holds out tissues.

"Sorry for the mess." I say unsure and quickly stand up and hurry to the toilets. Luckily they have single toilets with the mirror and sink right there where I can lock the door.

"Fuck." I say as I lean over the sink, staring at the ground. Fuck. What was that? He called me a murderer. I'm no killer. Noah was the fucking killer. He tried to kill me, not the other way around.

"Fuck." I say once again as I feel my eyes begin to water.

Do I have to watch my back wherever I go again? Do I have to be scared of being alone again?