Am I supposed to feel misunderstood?
Am I supposed to feel forgotten?
Am I supposed to feel empty?
Is that why God made me?
Did he want me to feel like at any moment I could die?
Did he want me to be so sad all the time?
Did he want me to be angry?
Is this all in his devine plan?
Or am I drifting off into a path that I'm not meant to walk?
Is it ok that I put other people down because I can't deal with myself?
Is it ok that I can hold a conversation because I cant control my mouth?
Or is that natural?
Is it wrong that I want someone to care about me?
Is it wrong that I'm tired of giving everything and not getting anything in return?
I just wanna escape from everything my friends, family, everything.
Im so tired of faking a smile.
Im so tired of repeating a cycle.
Wake up.
Put on a mask.
Goto school.
Get ignored.
Go home
Cry.
Repeat.
Maybe I should stop looking for a savior.
Maybe I should be my own savior.
Im going to save myself from this never ending nightmare.
