Is This Love?

Chapter Six:

TRIGGER WARNING - Suicide (This is quite descriptive and please don't hate if you disagree with anything said) Please only read if you aren't going to be triggered. 

My emotions were becoming too much, my thoughts running in my head, I couldn't think. I need it to stop. I began to run through the halls of my school wondering where I could hide, I ran past an empty classroom and dove inside, I dropped to the floor and crawled to the corner near the window and opened it for some air. I hadn't realised it at the time but I had entered Lady Lesso classroom, it was probably due to the fact I found her comforting, well she made me nervous as hell but she was almost comforting. 

I drew the dagger from it's sheath and pulled up my sleeves, I could see the familiar faint lines from all the other times it had become too much but this time was different. It had been a while since I had last cut myself but I didn't want to be here anymore, it may sound stupid to some since it was over something so small however I didn't see why I should be alive. Bringing the dagger closer and closer to my skin, my heart racing, my thoughts swirling, I angled the dagger vertical to my forearm. 

I began to drag the cold sharp blade across my skin, the blade ripping through my flesh hungry for the blood it concealed. Moments passed, nothing. Then the collection began, the blood pooling together becoming larger and larger until it was too much to hold within its own bubble. Like a needle popping a ballon, the pool began to run, racing down my body until it reached its final destination. The once warm liquid now stone cold as it landed on the classroom floor. 

One drop. Then another and another, growing in size. Was it too much? It was satisfaction, calming, silencing the thoughts within, the emotions wanting to get out but trapped in an endless battle. There it was finally, my head began to clear and I could think more clearly again. I began to smile, accepting my fate, my battle was finally done. Some might call me a coward but I finally had the courage to do it. 

I began to hear a familiar clicking of heels but ignored it, knowing I only needed a few moments. The door burst open my favourite villain entered walking over to her desk to retrieve something. I watched her movements, analysing every detail of her beautiful face however I believe this made her realise someone was there, her head shot up scanning the room until seeing the open window and the body beneath it. With every click of her heel upon the concrete your blood continued to flow out your arm, it was too deep for your blood to clot and stop it. As her face came more into the moonlight she noticed who it was, curious she asked "What are you doing here?" I didn't reply but merely smiled in greeting, revealing the marks jack had bestowed upon me.

I watched her eyes travel my body seeing the scene and the knife still clutched in my fingers, "What have you done Y/N?" she questioned in a softer voice kneeling down to be at the same level as me. "Let it happen. Let me be free" I replied. She began to come closer and bringing her hands towards my bleeding arms, "Don't! I don't want to be here anymore, life is shit always has been but I never managed to bring up the courage. Life is worthless, meaningless, I have nothing so what's the point? I'm alone in the world, I'm not loved or even liked, no one cares. No one would notice if I disappeared, they didn't the first time. So what's the point?" I ranted trying to get everything out. There was pure silence as Lesso just watched me thinking until she finally let the words leave her mouth in nothing more than a whisper "I care. Please Y/n, your are loved even if you don't see it. What about your friends and family?" she questioned trying to reassure me. "I have no one, no family, no one to care. I feel nothing and everything at the same time, it's hard to explain. Please forgive me and let me go." I explained as I placed my hand upon her face and stroked her cheek affectionately, " Stay for me, do it for me. Please" Lesso pleaded. "I'm sorry my villain, I can't." I replied moving my hands into her hair twisting the curls around my finger as my blood continued to stain the floor more and more. "You know I always did have a thing for redheads" I smirked "Can you complete a dying wish" I asked, Lesso merely nodded her face appeared sad as if she was on the brink of tears "Kiss me?" I asked unsure of the answer. She placed a hand each side of my face and she drew closer keeping eye contact with me, our lips finally connected. Her lips were soft and warm however mine grew colder and colder, it was as if fire and ice were dancing together. The kiss was soft and sweet rather than harsh and full of lust but I could feel her emotion. As our lips parted she placed her forehead upon mine, I felt a slow dripping upon my cheeks as I looked upon the gorgeous face I noticed she was silently crying. "Thank you Lady Lesso" i said while wiping away her tears before allowing my hand to drop exhausted with little energy left. "Leonora" she replied after a moment, "Leonora" escaped my mouth before I fell unconscious. 

3RD Person:

Once Y/n had fallen unconscious, the dean of evil took off her jacket and ripped parts of her shirt up underneath, she tightly wrapped y/n's forearms applying pressure to the wound and prevent anymore bleeding. Lesso picked up her student bridal style and ran out of her school as quickly as she could, she received many weird looks as she held a student in her arms and had their blood smeared across her face. She hurried across to the opposite side of the bridge only stopping outside the closed doors, banging loudly upon the heavy doors with all her strength. Finally the fairies opened the door "I need to see Professor Dovey. Tell her to meet me in the infirmary." Lesso demanded but the fairies were hesitant "Now!" she shouted, they let the evil dean past with y/n in her arms as another fairy hurried to find their own dean.

Once Lesso finally arrived at the infirmary, she gently placed Y/n down stroking her cheek as she let another tear fall. Footsteps could be heard getting nearer, Lesso finished sorting herself out just as the door opened "What took you so long" she shouted towards Dovey. "Lesso calm down and tell me what happened" she replied in a calm, soothing tone, "Heal her, now." she gestured towards y/n as she spoke. Dovey rushed over removing Lesso's make shift bandages and examining the damage, "What happened to her?" Dovey questioned with a worried tone, "What does it look like. She tried to kill herself, I found her bleeding out in my classroom with her dagger in her hand." Lesso replied a little annoyed with the questions. "Can you save her?" Lesso asked trying to hide her worry, "I can try, give me a moment." Dovey responded she placed her hand upon y/n  forearms over her wounds. 

Several minutes past and nothing happened, Lesso grew very impatient seeing that nothing was happening "Well?" she asked annoyed. Dovey ignored her keeping her eyes closed focusing on her task, after a moment y/n's skin began to mend it's self. The wound was pulled shut leaving a faint white mark, "thank you Clarissa, you can go." Lady Lesso said bluntly. "Make sure she gets rest for the next few days" Dovey replied rolling her eyes at the fellow dean before making her way to the door, she took a final glance at the Lesso seeing the worry in her body, smiling she left the room.

Lady Lesso used her magic to conjure a cloth and a bowl with warm water, she gently dipped the cloth in the water giving it a small squeeze to remove any excess water before softly applying it to y/n's arms. She gently washed of the blood off which took quite awhile, once she was finished it was very early in the morning. She picked her up bridal style again began to make her way back to her school, She climbed the many stairs that eventually led her to her room. She gently opened the door and placed the still unconscious Y/n upon the dean's own bed, drawing a blanket over her so that she wouldn't be too cold in the room. She quietly left the room and made her way back over to her classroom to remove the blood that was on her floor, she didn't want questions about it as she didn't know what Y/n wanted. Lesso could easily make up a lie, no one would argue with her but it was easier to just remove it. Once the blood was hardly noticeable she made her way back to room. Laying beside y/n still in her clothes, she drew the blanket over herself aswell watching over y/n still worried that she might not wake up. 

The dean's eyes finally closed allowing her to fall into sleep.