Hi daddy, Today is the day I turn seven
Mommy says I get to finally see you & know what happen
They said you were in jail daddy, For a entire seven years
Could you hear me daddy, I whispered to you in my prayers
You probably didn't here me so here's what was said
"Hi how are you I hope you have been swell,
Have you seen the movie daddy,about lacy and that well
If not its okay,
I still have it on replay
I wondered what you looked like
I hoped i looked like you
I wondered if you'd teach me how to ride a bike
I wondered if you'd be a great dad too
well i finally met you; boy is it true
& i couldn't believe it my entire face was from you
As time went by everything was great!
we were bonding like icing on a cake
however that time got weird as it went on
you quickly yet slowly broke that bond
Daddy became Jamie
but with even more time that named pained me
soon you were the unknown
this person who broke a girl and made her mind groan
Groan with sorrow and pain and unfortunate trauma
I remembered that night i cried for my momma
see all those years you thought i was sleep
and i bet you were glad i hadn't said a peep
But what you did broke me
I didn't know how to break free
I had trauma that lasted for years
While you where spending yours, drowning in beers
You blamed others for what you did to me
You couldn't live with the fact
That every time you looked in the mirror you saw a monster looking back
I finally stepped out my shell
and I rang the bell
The bell of truth and forgiveness
I said it was time to tell it
however when i did you fumbled the ball
and the SC family saw it all
Thats when things turned bad
they knew the truth and they threw me out like an old rag
Everyone was always on your side
and i was just the kid who lied
Did y'all know that inside i died
why would a child lie about a pedophile
that made her tears run long at the nile
But i found out the truth nonetheless
and boy was it ruthless
That's okay i've grown up
and i refuse to shut up about my trauma
Will this hurt your lifestyle
idk but you ruined my childhood the all the while.
You live a life where everyone looks out for you
but what am i to do
when the one thing i wanted was a sincere apology
but instead i got a bunch of bull cocky
as to how it's not your fault
and how nobody cares for you
and how to everyone else you don't understand why i have the hurt that I do
Let's talk about how you told everyone
that i was the one
the one being ungrateful
The one so hateful
Why not say how i was hurt or that 20 you still gave me a scare
i mean i truly didn't Dare
to do anything while alone with you
for the monster you are would always shine through
let's not forget this
that you're the one who broke this child
& I my is equaled to pissed
I look like you; i have your face
I wish this wasn't the case
You were supposed to be my father
but instead you became my monster....
