Until Dawn

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Even though it was a friday, I'd gotten in so much trouble for not telling them where i'd be.

PREVIOUS NIGHT

I was home finally, and so high. My mom, my dad, and my brother tyler sitting on the couch staring at me and billie. Our eyes red as hell. There was no way to hide it.

"What's up.." Billie said nervously

She walked up to one of these cool trippy figurines my dad had brought. "Is it.. moving"

I start giggling and we head to my room.

I gave her some of my night clothes and we laid on the bed tired as shit.

"EVIE ELIZABETH VERLICE, get in here NOW" I hear from the living room.

"Ooo shit we're done for" billie said.
"Not really, they act like they've never done worse" I reply.

I walk into the living room. My brother had went into his room.

"Yes mother and.. father" I say.

"First things first, if you had your phone on you why didn't you call or ask first. Second, why is there a O'Connell in our house? Elizabeth they're trouble" dad says.

"You know.. maybe you shouldn't think so low on every one. Okay they've done bad things but billie is different"
"Second, I shouldn't have to ask. I'm 13. I'm capable of being responsible"

Mom replies, "Obviously not. What are you even on? LSD? Coke? Molly?!"

"Maybe i'm on something so what. I'm living my LIFE"

Billie listened from the other room i figured. I knew this was kind of triggering especially with what happened to her mom..

"Evie I do not want her here. And what's with all the new clothes? Where did you get the money to buy this shit you look ridiculous. Tyler told me about your melt down"

My heart dropped more and more. She wasn't even sober. "So what I wanted something new. Just leave me alone okay"

I stomped into the bathroom.

The tears i'd been holding in came out slowly. Luckily I had sound proof walls. I punched and kicked the walls so hard.

"This is so fucked up, my life is so fucked up"

I stood up to the medicine cabinet and opened a little silver box with a bunch of razors and blades in it.

I looked at myself in the mirror in disappointment and disgust.

"You deserve it"

I'd never done this before. You know. Taken a blade to my skin.

I slowly pressed down and swiped.
"Ah, FUCK" I said.

I got a towel and pressed down to stop the bleeding. It was sort of.. freeing?

Luckily I had wraps so I wrapped one around the three I had done..

I left the bathroom throwing the towel into the wash and heading back to my room pulling down my oversized hoodie sleeve.
"You hear any of that?"

But before I knew it she was actually sleeping.

I kissed her cheek. "I love you so much billie"
But would I ever be able to say it to her face?