Crepuscular Rays

Preface

     The room is spinning. I know I'm sitting, how am I spinning? My head is pounding, my heart empty. Where am I? Trying to stand something hard hits my foot.

"What's your problem?" I look to where the loud, dark voice came from.  He looks at me like he's disgusted. What's his problem, who is that?

     Pushing myself up, I stand. Everything moving slowly around me. Who are all these people. Walking down this hallway, their faces all around. Why do I feel like this, empty. Lights going fast loud music pulsing. 

     I never thought I would experience heart break again. This is far worse then anything I have ever felt. It isn't just heartbreak, but the loss of the only person I would live for. I keep asking myself why am I here, but I don't mean this hallway or party, I mean on this earth. No one will ever compare to him. 

     I finally find the front door of this house, and push my way through. The grass is soft under my feet. I can smell the bitterness of the winter air, should I be cold. I am not. My feet keep moving, but I don't know where I am going. It doesn't matter anyway.