The diary of a faction defector

Maggie Woodruff

Today is the biggest day of my life ,well one
of the biggest. This day will change my life forever.

My name is Maggie, And I live in abnegation for the time being. It's not easy to be selfless always having to put others needs before your own ,it's hard.

Not for my mother though she makes it look easy she is so kind and quiet and polite to every one she meets ; I know for a fact that I will never be as selfless as she is.

I have a little sister and she's never really been the kind to just sit there while a dauntless child bullied another one of our own at school ,she's fiery and wild .I once saw her sneak out after curfew just to go and climb onto a rooftop to look at the stars. Mom always said she'd be the one to leave the faction.

I guess she knew from the start.

My mother talks about my father, not often
but enough to know what his faction is and why he isn't around;she said that they were madly in love and though they would be together forever (naïve teenager talk) but it was sadly not to be .

When the time came for the choosing ceremony, the ceremony in which you chose which if the five faction you wish to belong to, my mother and father decided to chose abnegation because dauntless was not a faction suited for the life they wanted.

My mother went first, she took the knife and put one cut into her palm and held it over the stones of abnegation, as the blood splatter on the gray stones she looked at him and mouthed the words "your turn". After about three or four other dauntless teens it was my fathers turn, mother says she saw panic in his eyes and a bead of sweat running down his forehead as he grabbed the knife. He made a small cut into his hand and held it over a bowl ,to my mothers horror it was the hot coals of dauntless .

She felt betrayed he had chosen his home faction over her ,she was heart broken; but there was something she never told him...she was pregnant with her first child...me. Jenna , my little sister came about six years after me; My mother was married by then and had a good life in abnegation .she is quite a handful she is reckless and careless ,I don't think she thinks about anyone but me, mom, and that cute boy in her class, August.

August was about one year older than her ,he actually doesn't live to far away from us only about a twenty Minuet walk. yesterday she got in trouble for saying something rude to the teacher mom was furious when we got home that day.

I've been told that I'm a safe, not letting anyone in or anything out. It's not that I want to be its just...it's hard for me to trust people who do not understand, I don't mean it to be rude I really can't help it.

I suppose I make it worse by sitting at the back of the class quietly trying desperately not to draw any attention to myself. My faction doesn't make it any better , I am afraid to speak up because I know I can't, I would be ridiculed if I did.

My only true friend is Zachary, he is the most kindhearted person I have ever met. He has helped me when my shyness got the best of me or when I can't take the name calling and I just want to crawl into a corner. He is very tall, making me look small, and lean, he has bleach blond hair with the greenest eyes I've ever seen.

I like school, threw all the bullies and names, it's knowledge and books and learning. It's confuses me how can value not only knowledge but also kindness and honesty. I turn sixteen in two days which means I will have to chose, chose to leave my family or stay.

Am I selfless like the abnegation ? Am I kind like The amity? Am I intelligent like the erudite? Am I honest like the candor ? Or am I brave like the dauntless

From the time we are small we are told about the test.
This is not like those test you take at school, this test sorts you by your personality to see what faction you fit best in. It is ultimately our choice but this test is supposed to help.