The CHEF from Burhan & Sons

Chapter 8 - Amaryllis

I did not need such drama, not from the crappy day I just had. I never wanted Liam to see me this way, weak and broken. I didn't expect Jordan to show up at my house either and yet he did and I was foolish enough to believe that he came just to talk and that he would be civil about it.

He wanted to have sex and when I refused, he slammed me on the wall holding me by the throat claiming that I always played hard to get.

"Let me help you up", Liam said with pity. I pushed his hand away and then stood up on my own. I was not a damsel in distress, that was my past. I'm not that person anymore, I don't need a man to protect me, I don't need anyone to protect me. "Amy I'm just trying to help", the way he said made me feel guilty. "I know, I just... I tend to get defensive sometimes, it's not personal", I said rubbing my neck. He didn't say anything he just looked at me. I turned to the kitchen counter and there was a container.

"Is that what I think it is?", I asked trying to tease him. He nods his head, a smile appearing on his face. "Was it a peace offering?", I asked making him smile even more. I didn't wait for his reply, I rushed to the kitchen and took a plate serving myself a generous amount of lasagne without waiting for him. I moaned at the first taste and sat properly to devour the rest. By the time I was done, he was on his fourth spoon-feed, I smiled and kissed his cheek as I went to wash my plate. Honestly, I can't get over the fact that he still has feelings for Valerie but the least I can do is enjoy when I have him all to myself.

"I spoke to Sandy and she said that Tate feels bad for talking about your past during dinner. She also said you've been avoiding your brother since then", I said making him put down his spoon and chewed slowly as if trying to find the right answer for me.

"Would you blame me? He's the reason we are in this situation, to begin with. Amy I'm trying really hard to get over her. I don't want to be with her, I just don't know what to say because I love you so much and I would do anything for you. I just need time, what I feel is not a switch that I can just put off and then pretend nothing happened but I would never choose her over you", he said with pleading eyes. I didn't know I had tears in my eyes until I felt his finger wiping my tears away.

"I love you too Liam, I just... I've never been in a situation like this", I said while full-on sobbing at this point. He pulled me into his chest, hugging me. He was quiet. He always did that when he was feeling overwhelmed. His heart was beating so fast but so was mine. I pulled back and looked him in the eyes.

"Liam, what did we get ourselves into?", I asked making him look sad. "I'm sorry that I'm not what you deserve", he said with a guilty smile. Another thing he did when he was beating himself up. I held his face in my hands and then kissed his forehead.

"You're exactly what I want Liam. We're in a complicated situation and I will be pissed at times but I'm not going anywhere baby", I said then kissed his very sexy pink lips. His hands circled my waist and it felt like my body was shocked with shivers, it felt amazing, I pulled him closer and I was awarded by the hardness that turned me on even more, I moaned into the kiss making him smile.

"You're wearing too many clothes baby", he whispered in my ear making me remove my clothes in record time. He carried me to the couch and positioned me on all fours. I heard a belt being unbuckled then the zip being opened and finally, he was right behind me. He entered me in one move making me scream and arch my back as he held my waist in place.

"Fuck! You feel amazing. I missed you baby", he said increasing his pace. I missed him too but there was no way I was going to tell him that, I wanted to enjoy my moment first. I felt his index finger on my clit, I expected him to start rubbing but he didn't. It annoyed me, I was almost at my peak when he pressed on my bud and then kissed the middle of my back. I felt the pressure build inside me and I just let go, screaming his name in the process. His hand went on my boobs pressing me to his sweaty chest, he pulled me up and we were both kneeling at this point with his lips sucking my neck and I was sure he was going to leave a hickey.

When his other hand went to my abdomen, I knew he was close. He kept moaning right next to my earlobe then I felt his warmth fill me, making me reach my second orgasm. "Fuck! I love you so fucking much", he said kissing my shoulder as he pulled out of me.

We went to sleep and I was at peace in his arms. I always slept on his chest with my fingers running back and forth his soft hair. He complained in the beginning, saying that I was treating him like a pet but soon got used to it and it became our thing. I felt guilty when we fought because, he kept on tossing and turning trying to get some sleep but I knew, he was so used to how we slept that it was hard to sleep with me in the same bed and yet not able to touch me. I felt the same way but I was crowded by anger and jealousy that all I wanted was to make him pay for not defending our relationship in front of his brother and Sandy.

Our relationship is not ordinary and I don't expect anything to be easy but, I was going to fight for what we have because I know, what we have is worth fighting for. Liam is the only man that I've ever loved this much. I can feel it turning into an addiction and I don't want to stop. I want to give him my all until he tells me otherwise. Only he can push me away, if he feels what he says he does then I'll remain committed to him forever because that's what love is in my book.