Saving Ezra

Chapter 1

Trigger warning talk of self-harm, thoughts of emptiness
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Ezra:
Ezra jolted awake at the sound his alarm it was loud and annoying, it was third one he had set the night before the third one indicated he finally had to get up. "Shit" he said out loud to him self. He sat up in bed arms laying beside his legs. He looked over at one of them slowly hoping that last nights relapse was all just a horrible dream he had. Shocker it wasn't, and it had never been just a dream. He lifted up his right hand to touch the now scarred over cuts. They were bumpy, and gross but the pain it gave was like no other. He didn't know when the depression started to get this bad. He was maybe fourteen when he cut for the first time. That didn't matter right now there was no going back to being normal he thought while staring at the grey walls of his one bedroom, one bath apartment.  He stopped disassociating for a minute realizing it was 5:00 he had thirty minutes before he had to be out the door for his job. He sighed throwing his legs over his bed, Pushing him self off of the bed with his hands he started getting ready for the day. He walked over to his small bathroom and turned the water on in his shower stripped out of his boxers then went into cold shower. The cold water instantly woke him up he took a breath letting the water fall down on his hair letting the water trickle onto his face. This had been his first shower in at least a week he had been to depressed to even get up to eat. He should probably do that he added that to his mental list of things he needed to do.  He got out of the shower after couple of minutes.  He tied a towel he had set out earlier around his waist after drying his short hair off. He quickly walked over to the mirror above his sink looking at himself. His dark black box die hair was a wet mess on top of his head, his eyes had dark circles indicating that he had lack of sleep which was not true considering he barely got out of bed now a days. But his eyes themselves were pretty they were light blue complementing his hair very well. It was the one thing he still liked about himself. He quickly dried his hair styling the overgrown mess as best as he could. He ended up with a mess hairstyle but it looked purposeful. He dried of completely before walking into his room to get his uniform for work. It was a white button up, with black dress pants and of course he paired it with converse. Before he put his dress shirt on Ezra threw on a tight gray long sleeve shirt so when his shirt rode up on him nobody would see his cuts. He put the rest of his clothes on, grabbing socks in the drawer and throwing them on before putting on his black converse. He was ready to go all he needed to do was brush his teeth, put deodorant on, and spray some Cologne. He finished up by grabbing his jacket it was much needed considering it was the beginning of December he opened his door locked it then he was off. The cold air hit him immediately not that it was a bad thing it wasn't at all actually. It felt honestly good to feel fresh air after being in bed all week. His job was only a good 20 minutes away so it wasn't to bad. His thoughts wandered on the way there nothing good was coming out of his brain, the feeling of emptiness was high today. Five minutes left before I get there he realized his anxiety was starting to stir. "Please for the love of god be any easy day today" he thought rubbing his hands on his face while taking a deep breath. He was outside of the bar he worked at finally the cold was actually kind of getting to him. He walked it the smell of booze hit him right away his nose wrinkled at the thought of having to smell this all night. He walked into the back clocked in while doing this he looked over and saw his boss coming his way hand up in a wave. "What does he want" he said mentally. I've only worked here two weeks and he's already acting like we are best friends. I rolled my eyes. "Ezra! Hi you got hear right on time today." He herd his boss Kendrick say. I put a smile on my face " yep, didn't want to be to early you know?" Ezra cringed about how happy he sounded. He took this time to get a good look at his boss. Kendrick was handsome and muscular. He had lots of tattoos that peaked under his dress shirt he was wearing, his eyes were green like a leaf in summer. He always wore that goofy grin during the day wether it was talking to the customers or the talking to his coworkers it never left his face. "Need anything while I'm back here?" Ezra questioned wonder why his boss was still looking at him." I was just wondering if your feeling alright that's all" Kendrick said the smile going down slightly. Ezra froze and replied quickly " I'm doing just fine, I'm gonna get to work now". He walked over to the bar saying hi to Sarah his other coworker she was a beautiful dark brown she was just beautiful in general. "Omg, hi sweetie I feel like I haven't seen you in forever. How's my best friend holding up" she said back with a smile. Ezra chuckled for the first time in awhile "first off it's only been a week, second off I'm doing good." He lied. "Well I still missed you" she puffed out. "Miss you too Sarah" he said honestly. Sarah and him have been best friends since high school they met when Sarah transferred to his school one year and they hit it off the first day. She was his only friend, the only one who knew that he was gay, and the only one who knew about his mental illness. She was honestly an angel. "Get that ass to work Ezra." She said while laughing. Ezra put his hand over his chest in a goofy manner as if he was offended. "Fine, I will" he said then he actually got to work.
Kendrick:
Ezra quickly walked passed me not bothering to say anything else other than he was fine. My my smile dropped a bit, him, and his coworkers were family so if anything was wrong he wanted to know. But then again he was 37 he was to old to get into the younger mans business. Their wasn't anything he could do about it right now he had to be off to work. He quickly went to his small office in the back of the bar sitting down on his old chair he looked over at the paper work that had to be done. He swiftly picked up one of the paper, put his black glasses on, and unbuttoned the top two buttons on his dress shirt. No reason to have them buttoned when nobody was around. He then got to work on looking at the papers making sure the money was coming in smoothly. He grinned sales were good  as long as he had the regulars he would be just fine. About an hour later he finished all the paper work he sighed throwing his glasses of his face onto the paper covered desk. The news was on he looked over at the tv "breaking news be careful out there tonight because a snow storm is coming, expect around 3 feet tonight starting at 7." Fuck me he thought I have to drive home in this shit. He looked over at the clock it was already 6:30 meaning the snow would start soon.  Oh well nothing he could do about it. He stood up suddenly buttoned his shirt back up and walked out of his office.  As soon as he stepped out he herd the loud bar it was busy tonight. He should probably raise everyone's check this weekend it's been busy like this all week. He walked over to his regulars "hey how's it going guys?" He said out loud. "Kendrick hey, you know same old same old" he herd from the older guys. He excused himself and went to work at the bar.
*3 hours later*
Man he was tired today was long and busy. He thought to himself while clocking out everyone else was gone besides him or so he thought. He walked into the break room to see Ezra half way out the door. " Hey Ezra your not walking home tonight are you" he looked at him in disbelief it was freezing out it was a borderline blizzard. The younger man looked over at Kendrick " I- um its only 20 minutes on foot I'll be ok I promise" he said with a fake smile. "Your crazy if you think I'm letting you walk home in the blizzard" he replied to Ezra. He tried to fight back"I'll be ok it wouldn't be the first time". "I'm taking you home and that's final Ezra your not going to say no to your boss are you" he said in a serious tone. " Alright" Ezra said back quietly wrapping his arms around himself. "Did you even bring a jacket" Kendrick said in disbelief looking a Ezra he saw that he only had his white dress shirt on. "I spilled beer on it, and it's still wet" the other man said with another fake smile. "Ok well you can borrow one of mine for now" he said grabbing on his spares and throwing it over to the younger male. He watched him put it on it was big on him due to the fact the Kendrick was muscular, and talk, and Ezra was skinny, and short. " I just need to turn the lights off then we can get going, alright" he saw him nod in return. Kendrick went to turn off all the lights coming back to find Ezra waiting next to the front with his phone close to his face. "Let's go ok" he said to Ezra with a grin. Another nod came his way, they then proceeded to go outside in the cold. It was freezing no way he would of made it 20 minutes in this he thought to himself. "My truck is right over here" Kendrick says to Ezra while walking towards the vehicle the other man close behind him.
Ezra:
I got into the truck like Kendrick told me to do. I didn't want to be here with him I didn't need anyone's help. Why was he helping me all of the sudden. He was right though it was basically a blizzard out the wind was blowing and you could barely see in front of you. Ezra quickly go into the car with Kendrick the heat from the truck felt amazing. The coat that he gave him was to big but at the same time it was comforting it was grey and smelled like expensive Cologne in the best way possible. His soiled jacket was on his lap he cringed at the smell of it. Then they were off about 5 minutes into the drive Ezra realized he forgot his keys. "Shit I forgot my keys" he said out loud. His anxiety was starting his palms we're getting sweaty. He herd a chuckle from the drivers seat"it's ok you can stay with me my house is only about 10 minutes away from yours" Kendrick says like it's no big deal. Ezra was so close to have a panic attack "I I can't do that don't you have family I wouldn't want to bother them" he said quickly. " I don't live with anyone just myself" the older man said. "You are, are you sure" Ezra blurted out. "I'm sure" Kendrick says while looking over at him. A blush starts to form on his face nobody has done anything like this for him. " um thank, thank you" Ezra says to him trying not to mess up his words. "No problem kid" he wasn't a kid he was twenty one he was too old to be a kid. They pulled up to Kendrick's house not soon after it was nice looking from the outside and it was a good neighborhood. "Come on we are here" Kendrick says to him like he didn't know it already. He breathed in not knowing what was gonna go on In Kendrick's house. Kendrick opened the door for him, he then walked into the house. "May I use your restroom" he asked right as they got in. "Down the hall to the right"he herd the man say. He quickly went down the hall to the bathroom. When he got in he took the chance to look around it was bigger than his nicer even. He turned on the sink to the coldest setting and splashed his face. It was going to be a long night.

Just for fun I looked up pictures to show you what I think Ezra and Kendrick look like

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