A Monster Calls Again

Prolong/Introduction

It has been a year since Mum died Grandma has been stricter on me now that I am in high school Dad rarely visits (well not that he wanted to anyway) school is worse Lilly barely speaks to me now and after what I did to Harry no one wants to talk let alone look at me and Mrs. Godfree is constantly hounding me about what I did and the guidance counselor Miss. Thomson pulls me into her office to "talk about what you are feeling after your mum died" She says it with this glassy-eyed look and such a fake smile it just feels so forced the only freedom I have is when I go to my room and put my headphones in and draw. I still often think of the monster I draw him sometimes but it feels like a dream a bad dream I thought I could let her go but I still feel like I did when I let her go when I let the pit "take" her though I don't have that nightmare anymore it still flashes across my mind as I lay in bed 12:07 is now a cursed time so tomorrow I am going to leave I am going to the bridge and I am going ended it I am tired of this all of this I can't take it anymore I just want my mum the nightmares falls around me again "no no go away go away" I wake up hugging my knees to my chest shaking "no not again it can't be happening again" it is the same as before only it feels different I hear a familiar boom "Conner......Conner.....Conner O'Malley" I throw the covers back over my head "I am fourteen he isn't real he was never really"