Pining

Dawn

I wish I had never met you. I wish I could hate you too. I never could hate you, and I am glad I met you.
Why must you be so perfect? In every way, you are absolutely perfect. It confuses me yet delights me. You wandered into my life without knowing. I was so infatuated by you. You did not notice me as I am not someone you'd look at. I couldn't help but stare as you wandered around the room greeting new people, introducing yourself. That's where I learned your name, not from you telling me, but from ease dropping on every introduction. Your name was like hearing your favorite song for the first time, or trying your new favorite food. It fits perfectly in my vocabulary. I just wish you knew my name. We can't have everything we want though can we?
I desperately wanted to wander into your life like you did mine, but I was far too scared. I don't like the idea of failing. I couldn't imagine you hating me, because of one thing I said wrong. Which is why I never speak to you, I only observe you. My friends think it's odd, and I agree. There's nothing I can do. I'm stuck, being absolutely fascinated by you. You're something I wish I could pursue. I dream too much. I need a taste of reality. Though I think you're my reality, you show me love exists. Love is such a complicated feeling that I cannot comprehend. With you though it's clear. I'm in love with you and I barely know anything about you, only what I hear from others. I'm insane, stuck in this love, only declining. Give me a break. Love me back. Or don't, take you're time. There's no rush.
It's draining, falling for someone you cannot have. It's so hard to wake up and immediately think of you. You control my life and you're completely unaware. It's truly funny, how one day I was fine, bored by everyone. Then you came around and flipped my world upside down. I'm forced to relearn everything I knew. Though I'm learning knew things, about myself and life in general. Such as, how strong emotions truly are, and how fast they can change. It's interesting, yet confusing.