Jungkook POV
It's been two months since Jin hyung left for the military. I'd say that I've been living the 'rock' life since then. Doing nothing, just eat, feed bam, sleep, repeat. I guess that was my daily routine now.
My house feels so empty and numb without his laughter echoing through the walls. I've always loved having him at my house, just his presence makes me feel happy.
Last night, I went on live in weverse, thinking it might distract me somehow. And quite surprisingly, it did. Not entirely, but a little bit. Right now, Bam is the only one that is here to keep me some company.
During the live, many fans asked me to sing Jin hyung's "The Astronaut", but I just couldn't. If I sang it, I'm pretty sure I would've broken down. Because I miss him so much that even hearing his voice will make me cry, and i don't want ARMY to think something else. And if they did, I know it's gonna be bad. I'll get some really good scoldings from the upper management. I got some scoldings for doing live without their persmission.
The same day, V hyung went live on Insta, and I joined him. At least I'll have someone I could talk to. All my hyungs knew how I felt after Jin hyung left, and they tried their best to cheer me up. I guess V hyung wanted to do the same as well. I'm also glad that ARMY was there to talk to me, their words give alot of comfort, but not as much as Jin hyung did.
Even when I'm on stage and is sad, he cheers me up, just through some nice subtle actions. Like massaging my neck, putting his hand over my shoulder, holding my hand... Of course those were only on camera. There were more. Kisses, hugs, sex...
Sometimes it's hard to resist the urge to kiss him in public, especially when he's too cute. Especially his pout, oh my god... I really have the urge to peck his lips when I see his pout. It's too cute to resist.
In order to keep our relationship hidden from the public eye, the upper management have instructed us to stop interacting much in front of cameras. We should not interact that way. And they wanted us to perform Fan service on concerts and shooting, to keep ARMY satisfied with their "ships". And for me and Jin hyung, bickering was the main. I loved bickering with him though.
I must say that fan service made me highly uncomfortable. I can always feel Jin hyung's death stare whenever I'm performing fan service. The same thing with me when he is performing fan service with others too.
It's surprising that there are some fans who are into pairing me and Jin hyung, and analyse everything. How are they so smart to see everything we're doing and analysing them ever so correctly? They call us 'JinKook' which I think is a cute name.
I really want that day to come. The day where me and jin hyung can show our affection towards each other freely and with no judgement. If we announce our relationship, ARMYs will keep supporting us, right? I hope so.
Right now I feel so lazy and uninspired for working on my solo album. Too lazy that I can't even stand up from where I sat. When Jin hyung was around, I was always so energetic, probably ready to do anything. But now that he isn't here, it feels like the world just turned upside down and everything is happening the opposite way.
Lately I've been feeling this strange attraction towards V hyung, which is quite weird. I can't say it's love, No no no!! I only love Jin hyung. Love of my life, my yeobo.
I'm now having dinner with my five hyungs. I'm sure they planned this to keep me some company and cheer me up, since I've shown no reaction to their tries.
"How is your album going jungkook-ah?" Jimin hyung asked.
"I don't know, hyung... I don't feel inspired." I said and leaned my back into the chair while sighing.
"It's okay kook-ah, don't worry. Jin hyung will be back real quick, okay?" Jimin hyung said while patting my shoulder with a smile. I smiled back at him.
After a few minutes, we finished our dinner, I bid my goodbyes to my hyungs and left to home. But V hyung stopped me, asking, "Kook-ah wait. I'll come with you. You know, just to keep you some company."
I stood there for a minute, thinking if I should agree or not. Then I sighed and nodded. I opened the car door for him, and he sat in the front next to the driver seat.
On the drive home, none of us talked. I was focused on driving and the road, V hyung was looking out the window.
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Bam jumped onto V hyung's embrace the moment we entered my house. "Oh! Hey bammie! How are you?" Bam seems like he likes V hyung so much. He barked at him, I think he said "I'm doing great"
"Sit down, hyung. I'll get you something to drink." I said putting my jacket on the hanger.
"Pabo! We just had dinner! I'm okay, thanks." He said and showed his boxy smile.
I slightly blushed at the sight. Wait why am I blushing???? Ugh stop it jungkook! If jin hyung finds that I'm blushing at V hyung, he'll definitely scold me.
Chapter end.
Finally I'm able to write the thing that have been bugging my mind!!
And yess jinkook wil break up in this book mwahahaha!!
Please do look forward into this book too!! 😉
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