My Harlem Thug Story

Never the Right Time.

"Never the right time to say goodbye."

Teyana

I stood in front of the floor length mirror, looking back at myself. I felt numb to everything right about now. Today was Mama's funeral. It seems so unreal, she's really gone. I sighed heavily and straightened out my black coat . Walking out of the bathroom, I bumped into Quez.

He looked at me with sad eyes, I just put my head down and walked away. I walked down the hall towards Asia's room, Asia and Trini sat on the bed already dressed in their clothes.

"You guys ready to go?"

"No, I don't wanna go." Trini spoke looking up at me with glossy eyes.

Walking over to the bed I kneeled down and looked at Trini, " This is the last time we'll see Mama again Trini, you don't wanna see her?"

"No!", she spoke crying. " I don't want it to be the last time Tey, I don't want Mama to leave me, whose gonna teach me how to put on makeup and make cookies with me, she promised she wasn't gonna leave. She promised." She cried even harder, tears started to escape my eyes.

" Trini, she was very sick. Did you want grandma to be hurting?"

She shook her head no, wiping her tears away with the back of her hands, sniffling.

" Okay, well grandma isn't gonna hurt anymore, and guess what?"

"What?"

"Her and mommy is gonna watch over us all the time."

" Forreal?"

I nodded, "and guess what else?"

"What?"

"They'll always be here with us."

" How?" She questioned.

In here, I pointed to her her heart and smiled. " Right, here"

Quez

I looked at Tey as she walked past me, I wasn't gonna say anything about it because I understand what she's going through. Mama K was something special, she was a beautiful women, strong too.

I walked down the hall towards Asia's room and was about to walk in until I heard Tey's voice.

"Her and mommy is gonna watch over us all the time."

I don't think I could be as strong as Tey is being right now.

We arrived at the church, I reached over grabbed Tey's hand. Rubbing my thumb across her knuckles and bringing her hand up to my lips for a kiss. She looked over at me a forced a smile on her face. We got out getting the girls and walking up the side walk to the church.

Tey
Quez went to an empty pew with Asia and sat down, I looked back at him and I squeezed Trini's hand as we walked to Mama's casket. This walk felt extremely long, as if I'd never get there. Looking down at her lifeless body, my heart dropped. I can't believe she's gone...

"I can't see her" Trini exclaimed tapping my leg.

I looked down at her, asking her with my eyes if that's what she wanted, she nodded. I picked her up and she leaned over the casket whispering, but I could still hear her.

"Goodbye Mama K, I luh' you" Trini said kissing her forehead, something Mama used to do.

I smiled and walked over to Quez and Asia. We took our seats, people went up saying their last goodbyes, I noticed my aunt shaking her head and sniffling as Unc consoled her.

The service went on until the pastor called me up. I walked up in front of the church smiling, trying to.
Taking the mic from the pastor, I spoke.

"Goodmorning, I don't really know what to say. But I wanted to try and sing one of my grandma's favourite song.

I exhaled and started....

"You taught everything, and everything you've given me, I've always kept it in side, you're the driving force in my life, yeah"

People started to stand and one women shouted out " sing it baby". I smiled keeping down my tears continuing.

"There isn't anyone or anything that I can be, and it just wouldn't feel right, if I didn't have you by my side"

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"Mama, mama you know I love you, mama, mama you're the queen of my heart,your love is like tears form the stars, mama I just want you to know, lovin' you is like food to my soul"

Finishing the song out everyone was standing and clapping as tears rolled down my faced and I walked down and kissed her face. I know she would have loved it.

Quez

Man oh man, Tey blowed the hell- the world out that song, lord forgive me.
She walked over to me crying her heart out as people still stood clapping and crying along with her, I stood wrapping my arms around her.

"Let the church say amen" the pastor hollered.

" Amen" we all said.

Making our way out the church we headed over to grave site across the street where Mama K will be laid to rest.
I sighed heavily, give us the strength.

*****

As they lowered her into the ground, everyone walked of, except for Teyana.

" Ima give you a minute aight baby, we'll be in the car". She nodded.

I grabbed the girls hands walking away towards the car.

I turned around looking back and Tey began to break down, hunching over crying loudly. I let the girls hands go running back over to her catching her before she could hit the ground.

She cried and cried into my jacket beating my chest then grabbing me and holding me close to her.

Rip Mama K, we love you girl. Pray for Tey. Iman will now be playing Quez, Brandon Jennings foul asf, won't even that cute any ways, hmm.
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Xoxo, Jamilla