Why

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I feel upset

at all times.

I want to be happy

and have a good time.

I can't find joy

in the things I like

as they cause too much pain

thought out my joints.

I wish I knew why

all this was happening

or at least something that helped

while it was happening.

Instead I'm stuck

wondering why

and questioning

my body and all its flaws.

I don't like feeling the pain

and the feeling of hopelessness.

I don't like not knowing

if it will stop

or if its just going

to get worse.

As of now

its on a decline,

leaving me hurting

more than one should.

Why does this happen?

Why to me?

Why have I done wrong

for this to be the new me?

Is this who I am?

Or who I'm meant to be?

I don't what to be know

as the girl with pain.

 

At least now I'm making friends

although I don't know their face.

At least now I have a friend

who gets what I mean.

I now have someone to ask

the stupid questions in my mind,

and she knows what I mean

as she's dealt for a long time.

She's just like me

in many ways.

She says we must be twins

as we're so much alike.

I like having someone to trust

I only wish she lived near

so I could talk to her each day

and have a friend near.

I need a friend more than ever

someone I know I can trust.

I need to meet a new person

who knows just how to adjust.

They don't have to get

what I go through,

I would not wish this on anyone

as it is so tough.

I'm just asking for a friend

who will listen and react

and put up with my mood

as I'm very lost.

 

Why does this happen

to normal people like me?

What have I done

to get this cruel treat?

Did I do something wrong

that I just don't remember?

Or does this just happen

no matter what happens?

I haven't hurt myself

for this pain

just tried to walk along

at my own pace.

I want to go back

to when I could keep up

and hang with my friends

without seeming

depressed.

A word that now haunts me

everywhere I go.

Maybe I am

but I'm not ready to say so.

My sister thinks so too

and that hurts the most.

I care what she thinks

so her words hurt the most.

I just want to get

why this has happened

and what I can do

to make life a little bit better.

I can't continue to live this way at all.

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