I love him /fluff/bilboo

I love you sooo

I'm trying to post more out but idk so
I'm in my random name era
Tw
kissing
Some angst
Some goofy sounds
Tw insecure
Tw body dysmorphia
Hope y'all enjoy this masterpiece

Ranbos pov:
After the spin the bottle problem yesterday bill has been kinda aggressive
I don't mind it at all.
I was just sitting in bed on my phone than tubbo texted me, he asked me a question that made me freeze in shock.
Bill looked at me and said "what happened " I showed him the text it read "are you and bill dating,you guys seem super close" I looked at bill and didn't know what to do "do I say yes?" Bill smilled and said"yeah you should" I texted tubbo.
Texting pov:
Ranbo:yeah we are
Tubbo:oh..
Ranbo:is everything ok?
Tubbo:yeah...
Ranbos pov:
"Bill I feel bad " "why" he answered "I think tubbo liked me.." he looks at me and hugs me tight and i just cry, we sit there for about 20 minutes
And I look at and he looks at me
He crashes our lips together and i just smile,i licked his lip but it didn't work so i bit his bottom lip a little and he gasped and it gave me time to get my tongue in and explore.
We gasped for air and just look at each other.
My phone just started blowing up like crazy from twitter from people saying I got 5 mill subs and need to face reveal . All I could think was No no i have to face reveal I'm gona have to show my disgusting stupid ugly face . Bill grabs my phone and looks at twitter and congratulating me and kissed my nose and smiled. He quietly and softly said "We should stream". I didn't know what to say or do and all I could do was nod my head but in reality I was scared no terrified of what people were gona say.
About 20 minutes later bill is in his room getting ready and I'm in the bathroom looking at my face crying and saying how hi am and dose bill like me I am disgusting and a monster . I look in the mirror and see a disgusting monster looking of a face . I have my blade in my hand and look at my disgusting face and punch the mirror to make the monster go away and I ended up breaking it I look at my cuts on my arms from cutting and on my fist from breaking the mirror I start hyperventilating and shaking in terror what have I done I am a monster no no no I pass out from crying and the blood.

Bills pov:
I knew ranboo was scared but he wanted to do this.
I was getting ready and all I could hear was the loud sound of the shinny mirror of the bathroom that ran was in break and make a crashing sound hitting the counter I start running to his room no sprinting i was s I was gona be to late what if he was gone no no no I start crying. I hear his cries and screams in the bathroom and hear a loud boom from the bathroom. I finally get to the bathroom and see ranboo on the floor the bloody blade on the floor the broken glass on the floor. I run to ranboo and shake him praying his alive he wakes up and I hug him and let him cry he's bleeding allot mine and his clothes are painted red. I thought ranboo was clean he was clean for a very long time.. what happened was it my fault.. did I push him to far no no no I start crying and clean his wounds on his wrist luckily there not deep that he needs stitch's like I did last time I put bandages on his wrists and kiss them crying I grab his hand and clean it to slowly to make sure I don't hurt him. I wonder why no one has came in and asked what happened but I remember everyone was going to record a vlog with tubbo. I look at the tall man and help him up and help him slowly walk to his bed I put my hand on his cheek and said "if your comfortable when I get back from cleaning the bathroom tell me what happened ok love" all he did was nod I walk back to the bathroom and clean up

That's all come back for part 2
IM GOING TO A LOVEJOY CONCERT ABD FDDFXVTTGG