🌙ℜ𝔲𝔦𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔞 𝔬𝔫𝔢𝔰𝔥𝔬𝔱𝔰🌙

☁️꒒꒐ꏂꇙ ꃳꏂ꓄ꅐꏂꏂꋊ ꒒꒐ꏂꇙ☁️

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<Rui: Tsukasa-kun, why are you so quiet?>

<Tsukasa: O-Oh... It's nothing, Rui. Oh, look at the time! I'll be leaving earlier today. I have some things to do tomorrow and I don't want to be in a rush to do them. See ya>

<Rui: See y-. Oh, he left already...>

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☁️꓄ꁝꏂ ꋊꏂꉧ꓄ ꒯ꋬꌦ☁️

ﾟ｡･⁠*⁠.ﾟ☁️ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ

<Rui: Tsukasa-kun, can you help with this work for a second?>

<Tsukasa: I'm sorry, Rui. I can't today. I am very busy today and I don't think I can stay on the call any longer. I'll see you tomorrow.>

<Rui: Wait-... Not again...>

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Tsukasa's P.O.V.
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Another day, another lie. I feel bad for lying to Rui but he cannot see me at my weakest. He cannot see it. No matter what.

I got up from my chair and lied on my bed as my face faced the plain white ceiling.

This feeling I have cannot go away, not even if I'm feeling cheerful or joyous. This empty feeling does not go away nor disappear.

It's as if my life has no meaning anymore...

No, Tsukasa, you cannot think of such things at this hour. It's 8PM not 6AM.

But why...

It's as if a part of me is missing... A part of my old cheerful yet forgotten self disappeared from the map...

All of these thoughts are messing with my head! I cannot let them control me!

But at the same time...

It's true...

How do I fight something that is undeniably true...?

As all of these thoughts filled my head, I let out small and quiet sobs. I didn't want my sister or my parents to hear my disgrace.

I felt something roll down my cheek. I put my hand on my cheek, and just to my surprise, I was crying, just like I used to do when I was left alone and my parents were visiting Saki in the hospital...

I smiled...

I let the tears roll down as a smile was plastered on my face.

What have I become...?

The tears wouldn't stop rolling down. At this rate, I would be dehydrated by how many tears left my orange eyes. I let out a small laugh as I eventually spoke to myself.

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Tsukasa: Guess this will be another night crying myself to sleep huh?

☁️꓄ꁝꏂ ꏂꋊ꒯☁️

Author notes

If you are reading this, yes, I'm currently crying and no, I don't need help or anything

I'm gonna sort this on my own

Whether I like it or not, I must do it without help

And if you try to dm me I will not respond

Why?

Busy