Counting the seconds | Addison Montgomery x freader

Chapter 1: seconds

Rain pooling down the drained window like the tears you kept in, now freely falling. Too long you were standing there, just staring at the wall, the floor, the ceiling. Funny isn't it ? How fast time can run, chasing the long gone minutes.

Shit, I don't wanna be late- you thought. You grabbed the few things you haven't packed jet and stumbled out the door.Your flight to Seattle in 2 hours is leaving your throat dry. But to be totally honest you're excited to see them again. Mer and Arizona were pushing you to visit them again. Yeah, anyway now you're the one pushing with a tumour housing in your brain.

Lifting your large luggage off the ground and on the treadmill, to finally get checked in, is the last thing you do before you sit on the plane and lay your safety belt on. 6 hours feel long, so high above the ground. You're not willing to stay awake the whole flight, so you shut your eyes, slowly drifting off as you hear the soft humming of the plane getting quieter.
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After being undisturbed for almost the whole flight you finally wake up. The tall, slightly scary looking man sitting next to you, wasn't too thrilled by the crying toddler a few seats ahead and decided to murmur and huff complaints in his beard. You use the left time to think about Seattle, to be more concrete you think about the people in Seattle, your people.

You haven't seen them too often, after Derek died. It just hadn't felt right to come and visit, you should've, now that you think about it. The distance being so short, makes you miss them even more. But this time you visit not just as a friend, you're a patient. The word never scared you -patient- it sounds so small. Now you're the patient and it scares the hell out of you. Why?

The plane is about to land and you're about to see your friends. Stepping of the plane, you lift your head and take a deep breath , inhaling the fresh air seeping trough your lungs. It feels okay to be back, maybe even great.

You pick up your luggage and leave the airport to get a taxi. You already talked to Meredith about your visit and she gladly offered you to crash at her house. Not wanting to spend your first day back in some random hotel, you accepted thankful .

The ride was calm and you thought about ways to don't make the reunion awkward. You couldn't blame Mer to be mad. You just left and barely even called. As the taxi neared the location you couldn't shake off the nervousness climbing up your throat. Too long you were gone, too long you missed mer.

You paid the taxi driver and left the car, headed to her front door, gulping down a not exisiting knot. You counted the steps you made and took one last long breath before you knocked. It didn't took long for the blonde women to walk down the stairs, straight to the door.

She looked at you, she nearly stabbed you with her sharp stare. Probably you would've end up running if she hadn't stopped looking at you like that . Instead of the nearly cold stare she offered you one of her smiles. „Well, look who decided to actually visit." she grinned at you, taking your wrists pulling you in a warm embrace. „I missed you." you murmured in her hair hugging her even tighter.

„No need to strangle me!" she laughed pushing you inside. „You can have your old room back." she said practically dragging you and your luggage up the stairs. You missed this. You couldn't wait to see the others. „I will probably spend the whole time in the hospital." you mentioned tapping on your head. To point out the thing with the tumour chilling in your brain.

„Yeah, probably." she whispered turning around to look at you. You just looked at each other sharing unspoken words. You were both scared, even if you wouldn't say it out loud. You shake your head trying to throw the odd feeling away.

„Anyway, today is the day. So hospital is my next stop, do you mind coming with me later?" you asked trying to lighten the mood. „Of course, I have a shift later so it's perfect. How about we to catch up ?" she ask throwing herself on your bed. You smiled, laying next to her.
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There you were, walking trough the hallways of the grey Sloan memorial hospital, with Mer on your left and Arizona on your right side. In every step you made, laid fear. Would you walk out again? Would you survive? You were promised on of the greatest neurosurgeons, one that ist going to help you. And hopefully save you.

„Here we are. You can settle in and Dr. Shepherd will be here in a bit." Arizona told you smiling. „Thank you, see you two later." you said reaching your bed and laying your stuff on it. They walked out, looking happy to have you again, even as a patient.

You took your clothes and put them in your wardrobe, feeling kinda weird. Obviously you aren't used to live in a hospital. Finished with organizing your things you sat on the bed, staring at your hands. Damm it, why would you of all people get a tumour?

Clicking heels break your thoughts, urging you to look up. A woman with dark long hair walked in, smiling , with a nervous looking man by her side. "Hello there. Deluca would you mind presenting?"she questioned even if it wasn't a question. "But make it simple." you said, not wanting to hear more than needed.

He nodded " 32, female, with a tumour in her head. Here for a final removal of the tumour." presented the young man fast, holding your chart in his hands. "So Y/N the plan is that I will observe your tumour over the next couple of days. We will make daily tests to make sure we don't miss anything and after that you can say your final goodbyes to the tumour." Dr Shepherd told you looking at the charts.

„Sounds good" you said trying to smile not really happy with your long stay at the hospital. „Can you change, I would like to do a Ct." she added, looking at you with kind eyes.
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After spending two days in the hospital, you got bored staying in your room all day. Deciding to stop sulking around you got up and found things to do. Currently walking down the hallway with Mer, to kill your boredom, you saw her.

Orange locks effortlessly laying on her shoulders, confidence laying in her step as she made her way towards you. Addison Montgomery, yeah you knew her. Well you never really talked but, the beautiful woman was well known across your friends. You stopped, not daring to come one step near her. So as she stopped in front of you and Mer, piercing right trough you with her daring eyes, she knocked your breath right out of you.

„Hey, Addison" Mer smiled at her. But Addison was still looking at you tilting her head with a curious smile. „And you are?" she questioned. You couldn't stop looking at her, she was literally perfect. She raised her eyebrows, wondering why you wouldn't answer. „That's Y/N, you might have seen her before. She is a really good friend of mine." Meredith answered for you, chuckling at your loss of words. At that you took your self together trying to get at least one word out, not wanting to look like a complete fool. „What she said." you said looking anywhere but at her.

Addison smiled clearly amused by the strange behaviour you showed. „What are you two up to?" she asked still smiling, lifting her hand to push a strand of hair out of her face. „Walking." was all you said trying to find a way to leave this conversation as fast as possible. „Yeah, I see that." she remarked holding her laughter back. „Y/n here, is bored so she forced me to go on a hospital walk with her." Mer mentioned looking at you, acting annoyed to tease you. „How about you go on walk with Y/n instead ? I'm sure she wants to get to know you." she asked Addison, clearly trying to kill you.

Before anyone could say a word, you turned around. „You know what, I forgot I'm pretty busy dealing with my tumour. I have to go!" you announced, already running of. Leaving the two women stunned behind.