TW: DEPRESSION AND SELF HARM
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Atsushi knew about why Dazai kept the bandages on. He just never knew that he would grow that low to do the same. Right now, he is in the agency, with a pencil sharpener in his pocket. He took it off Kenji's desk, and is ready to go home and take the blade from it.
"Hey Atsushi, you need to get ready for the mission I just told you about, don't just stand there in your own world" Kunikida says. Atsushi immediately walks out of the agency. He is unsure of what he is supposed to be doing. All he knows is that he needs to go to west Yokohama. When he gets there, he just stands around, getting ready for anything. He sees an ability user that he heard Kunikida talk about that he needs to fight, and he rushes over and pushes the man into an alley. They fight, and it is rough and bloody. Atsushi is victorious, and he gets the thing he needed from the man, and walks over to the Agency. "Here you go Kunikida, I got the papers he had." Kunikida thank him, and he gets off shift. Atsushi walks home, and the walk is quite blurry in his mind. He just remembers thinking about the blade. As soon as he gets into his house, knowing Kyōka won't get home until way later, he closes the door, and runs to the bathroom, and grabs the screwdriver.
-TW START-
He takes the blade out, and pulls down his pants, revealing multiple white lines. He slowly puts the blade to his right thigh, and applies pressure, then swipes harshly. Blood immediately rushes out, and he keeps going, tears starting to fall. He blocked out every sound, so he didn't hear...
DAZAI POV
I opened atsushi's door. Huh, why is it unlocked, and why are all the lights off? As he walks around, he hears sobs in the bathroom. He knows what is happening. Dazai goes into a state of panic, and rushes over to where Atsushi is. He slightly opens the bathroom door, and lets out a silent gasp. The sight of Atsushi on the floor, an empty pencil sharpener and screwdriver on his right, and blood starting to drip onto the floor really sets Dazai off. He immediately rushes inside, and grabs the blade from him. "Atsushi stop! You've done enough!" Atsushi immediately panics "Dazai, this isn't what it looks like, I swear!" Atsushi tries to think up a lie "Really? Then what are you doing, Atsushi?" Dazai says. Atsushi just sighs "it is what it looks like. But let me go longer, I can do it" Dazai flushes the blade down the toilet "oh yeah? And what if you cut too deep? Would you want Kyōka to come home to see her friend, the person who saved her, in a bloody mess? On the brink of death? I don't think so, Atsushi, so let's get you bandaged up."
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As Dazai wraps up Atsushi, They stay silent. Before Dazai leaves, he speaks "if you ever, and I mean EVER feel like doing this again, please, call me or go to my dorm. I promise, I will always have open arms for you. Please Atsushi, I don't want to loose anyone else I consider my close friend." Dazai leaves after that, leaving Atsushi alone to think about who he was talking about.
