broken words

after 4.09

We had been walking for a while and found a restaurant on the side of the road. "This place is trashed." I walked into the room Mile's was in. It had already been emptied out but we decided to stay there until we could find the energy to keep searching. 

We spelt right next to each other. The fear kept us from moving even an inch away from each other. I couldn't sleep thinking about Carl and my dad and Daryl, the fact that i will never see them again. I might never talk to Glenn and Michonne or even see Maggie or Beth. It  hurts to think about.

"Rae?" I heard a voice whisper, it sounded slightly like Michonne. I thought I was dreaming but when I opened my eyes she was knelt down, shaking me awake. "Raelynn?" I jumped up, I grabbed her and hugged her so tight I didn't want to let go 

"am I dreaming right now?" I whispered into her shoulder. "Since when did you like hugs?" Michonne questioned but still accepted it "I thought I would never see you again." I said letting go of her. 

I reached to wake up Miles, he swung his knife at my face I grabbed his arm before he nearly stabbed me. 

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"Did anyone else get out?" I looked towards michonne, she shook her head "I didn't see anyone.", "Carl? Daryl?" she just continued to shake her head. "Judith?" she looked over at me "no." I replied. 

We walked for hours before finding a quiet neighborhood, we saw some boot tracks leading towards it and thought it was worth a chance.

I saw something in the road up ahead and ran to it, I knelt down to pick it up and it was a can of 112 oz of chocolate pudding. I guess you could call it sibling instincts but I knew Carl had to have been the one to leave that there, or maybe I was just making stuff up in my head.

"Listen, over there." Michonne gestured to one of the houses and I could hear muffled voices coming from inside the house to the right of us. I looked at Miles and smiled and he smiled back as we all walked up to the house. We looked through the window and saw Carl and my dad. 

I couldn't help but cry a little and neither could Michonne. She slowly knocked on the door I heard rustling and after a couple minutes the door slowly opened. 

"Rae?" Carl smiled while tears rolled down his face, he ran to me and picked me up hugging me so tight. He let go and ran to hug Miles. 

I saw my dad limping and walking towards me, I ran to him. I slowly let go. My dad held my face in his hand and looked down at me, "Are you okay?" I pushed through the tears, "I'm fine, did judith?" My dad looked at Carl with a frown across his face. 

I turned to Carl and he hugged me, my arms wrapping around his neck and his around my waist. "I'm sorry, Rae." he looked up at me "but mom-", "you didn't fail her, okay?" I nodded to him, wiping tears off my face. "She really loved you, C."

I couldn't keep them away from each other much longer <3