In Another World

☆Who's to blame?☆

"I haven't."He said sternly,his cold gaze making goosepumps appear on my skin.I was left speechless,like I was just told that I had an hour to live.Well,i thought it would be nicer to be that,than for him to say he doesn't care.

"What are you saying...All this time I've been devoted to you.I rejected all of them just for you!Just for you to turn your back around me and backstab me!" I snapped,his eyes widening by my sudden  outburst.He had never seen me so angry before,and he knew he got to my bad side.

"Ophelia,calm down." He tried stepping closer to me but i pushed him away.The roof was no joke a dangerous place to just run around but after hearing all those words,I wished I was buried seven feet deep into the ground.

"Don't tell me to calm down."

"Ophelia."He attempted again to get closer to me,causing me to push him slightly harder.Without realaziation i was backing up,almost reaching the edge of the roof.

He noticed that and in the blink of an eye he held my waist,instant sparks shooting through my body.He pulled me closer but he backed up too quickly and we both fell.I was on top of him,a bit flustered by the action.Our faces were inches apart,and he looked just as flustered as me.All the doubts i had about him not liking me disappeared into thin air.

He got up first,holding out his hand to help me get up.I glared at his hand as if he just offered me to kill someone.

"Tell me something...if you don't care,why are you still here?"I said slowly,not expecting myself to blurt out the words.He seemed deep in thoughts,as if I just gave him a reason to think about.

"I just can't let you or anyone in that matter take away their own life like that."He said.Instead of the words creating a relief,the tension grew bigger.The realization was visible when I noticed him bite his tongue.

"Who even told you I was trying to commit suicide?"I said defensively,not believing my own words.The words didn't convince him either.

"Are you kidding me?So you just stay at the edge of roof awfully close to enjoy the view?"I don't know why,but those words offended me like a little child when told no.I looked at the ground,still remaining sat on it.

"I don't need anybody here to be with me out of pity.You can go now,I've changed my mind.You said yourself that you haven't missed me and the indifference on your face is clearly visible.So just go away. "He was still standing,hesitantly fidgeting with his hands and some keys.I was expecting a simple 'fine,goodbye' but he sat next to me,trying to comfort me in some way without any physical contact.The silence was soon shut by my soft sobs,earning a worried glance from him.He started gradually getting closer to me,but I felt helpless at that moment,I didn't know if I should push him away or not.I held out my hand in the air.

"Stop."I said,a little bit of hurt in my voice.

"Don't come closer,you know how much I hate traitors." I scooped a bit away.

"Ophelia,I'm sorry.."I started laughing hysterically, like I had heard the funniest joke ever.

"Why are you laughing?"He was taken back by my action.

"How can you not laugh,when you find out you aren't dearest,to the dearest person to you?I cared for you,I really did,but I don't think you're worth fighting for anymore."He was watching me closely,examining every small inch on my face,as if he was trying to find something,something he knew he missed out.

"That's not true at all."

"Then what is?That you just forgot me? Lucky for you I had already guessed that."He clenched his jaw trying very hard not to snap at me.

"Do you...really think it was easy for me?"

"Your actions in the past and the present already convinced me to believe it was"

"No,it was never easy for me either.Do you know how much I have ached for you?Any beautiful unique things I saw just reminded me of you.The songs we used to listen to together,do you know how much I've replayed them all there years?The way you would giggle at my awful jokes,the way your eyes would sparkle when you saw me.Do you think I forgot you?Of course I miss you,of course I do.I even love...nevermind." I was a little stunned,like I couldn't but could believe him at the same time.The memories came flooding into my brain,causing me to drift into a reverie until he spoke again."...I just couldn't fight for you,you are my first love,first loves never last."

"But...what if all we had was true love."He scoffed at me,the blood in me boiling harder.

"True love...It does not exist.It never did.People are so delusional that they think love even exists."

"Don't say that,love truly does exist,you just haven't found the right one.Oh, I can't even lie, how much I wish I was the one for you.How much I wish you could love me"

" I did love you,but you destroyed it."

"I?.."

"Yes,Ophelia,you completely destroyed it.The day you told me that we can't be together was the day when I knew I hated you to the bottom of my heart.It was the day I stopped believing in love. It's your fault,It's all your fault,Ophelia,do you hear me?!"

"I...Stop talking nonsense!You know you don't mean it."

"I do mean it,I really do.And I want you to suffer like I have before.I want you to not sleep at nights because of the thoughts of me haunting you.I want you to suffer,I want you to remember me even in your last minutes."

"Stop" I closed my ears out of anger."Just go,leave!"Few droplets of tears covering the ground.I could still hear him clearly.

"You knew I was crazy in love with you!I was even ready to sell my soul for you.And what did you do? Ruined me.Ruined all my feelings.Ruined my thoughts,my life."His voice sounded more angry every time he spoke.I began crying harder,feeling like I'm a terrible lab experiment.The tension in the air already suffocated me,but somehow I couldn't go,couldn't move.Minutes later,he sighed loudly getting closer to me again.This time I didn't push him away,I was physically and mentally numb.I just felt like my body wasn't mine,and all of this was just a dream.To my distaste,it wasn't.

He carefully placed his hand on my shoulder,still being cautious in case I do something unexpected or not like it.I looked at him,the peaceful look on his face a while ago had turned into another monstrous face.He didn't say anything but his eyes did.They begged me to forgive them,to love them deeply but at the same time they screamed revenge.I was not sure why his words didn't seem like that.Maybe the revenge in him had spoken at last.

I heard quiet sobs,my head snapping at the speed of the light at him,only discovering him crying .

Uncontrollably,my hand reached for his wet salty cheeks,slowly caressing it away with my thumbs.The tears weren't stopping,they kept coming and coming.He held my cupping hands on his face in his,a look of generosity replacing the sad one.Closing my eyes, I was secretly enjoying the peace and safety around him.

The silence was soon disturbed by the unknown whispers coming from the deep darkness.I looked at him confused,his face slowly distorting and my vision going blurry.My head started throbbing like a drum and i blacked out.