The Desires of Love

Chapter 5

Suddenly , as I stare at my reflection , tears prick the back of my eyes , thinking of the difficult day tomorrow.  I almost fall down and I run to my dresser in my bathroom and open the drawer and grab my black lace thongs and matching bra, I rush to put them on and sit on the closed seat of my toilet. I lay my head in my hands and I begin hear 'What Hurts the Most'by Rascal Flatts, what if this is end for us, he will eventually find someone else. Teardrops are flooding out of my eyes and hit my cheeks, I sob softly ,  not to be heard by Alex.  I wanna wallow in my self-pity alone , but when a cry next , a deep sob leaves my lips. Crap!!

I freeze, maybe he didn't hear me, I hear the door swing open and Alex comes and kneels beside me.

"Lucy, darling, what's wrong ?"

My tears cause my words to sound hoarse, "Alex, tomorrow is going to be horrible and what if it's the  end for us? I'm scared to know, that is end of me, too. "

"Angel, it will be fine, you have me to take care of you always."

"It scares the hell out of me that when I'm not here, you will find someone else. "

"Well, I don't see that happening, you live here", he points to his chest where his heart is.

I wail and I can't speak, I am in agony, do I want him move on, I should, but selfishly I don't.

"Awe, baby girl, come here", wraps his arms around me and go willing, laying my head on his shoulder and my body is shaking from the tears and sobs that tear through my soul as I hear 'Open Arms' by Journey, he is incredible to me.

He runs his fingers through my hair in order to calm me down.  I sit up and stare at him, my tears are still staining my face, my man has concern in his eyes and I use the back of my hand to dry my eyes.l  can't stand to see him look that, showing pity to me. Damn it , it's my birthday, I should forget this for the moment and get prepared for tonight.

I shyly exclaim, "Honey, I am okay, I should get ready for this evening,"Attempting to get up, but Alex is holding me down.  Wtf?

"Sweetheart, are you sure you okay? "

I nod and he allows me to get up and I walk toward my bathroom counter again and Alex stands and hugs me and crush me, making my feet leave the ground.

"Angel, I will love you always. I got you through whatever. "

"I love you too."

He releases me from his grip and I continue to make my way to my bathroom counter again and he says," Sweetheart,  I'll let you get ready, so I can take my beautiful future wife out."

I really hope I have a future with him, expell this thought from mind, once again. Staring at the my reflection, motionless, smiling at myself like an idiot, I am so loved with what every being I am. What did I do deserve this beautiful life?  I hear 'You Picked Me'by Fine Frenzy , I want get absolutely beautiful for him ton