4 years of silence

Bad mom

" I'll give you 40 for both , Juan and I want to go have some fun with out these two girls bothering us " my mom said . Since my mom thinks she is still 21 she likes to go out " have fun " with her piece of shit boyfriend. At this time I was a 10 year old and my little sister was around 5 . All I wanted was to have my mom by my side and sleep in her arms but it's been a while since she has hugged me .. Ever since my sister was born she basically forgot about me . No love or affection towards me but only Julissa since she is now the " baby of the house " . As my mom pays Betty ( her best friend ) for taking care of my little sister and I for the night I walk into her house where her kids Anthony and Naomi are laying down on the couch by the window covered in foil , Betty's husband is nowhere to be found . I see my mom drive away already having a beer in her hand , I hated judging my mom for her actions but what can I say ? She wasn't ready for motherhood , and I think she never will be . While Betty started cooking for her kids and us I got comfortable since I knew the couch was where I would be sleeping . I wasn't hungry but the smell of beans , tortillas , and bacon where making my mouth water . " come & eat ! " her kids and my sister run to the kitchen as if it was a race . I stayed laying down on the couch slowly starting to fall asleep but the sound of the door opening & Rogelio being loud as always interrupted my peace . He nicely greets me & gives me a kiss on the cheek , he sits and watches tv for a while with his mouth slightly open . While everyone was getting ready for bed I was already half asleep . My sister slept on the couch across from me , I get up to tuck her in and kiss her forehead goodnight . I lay back down on the couch I basically slept in every weekend hoping my mom was okay & my dad was home safe , I prayed to God for a good sleep and safety and said good night mom good night dad , like if they were there next to me and slowly closed my eyes .