4 years of silence

Bastard

It's scary when someone wakes you up in a rough way , you wake up as quick as lighting but with your heart beating fast . That night I woke up the same way but worse . I woke up with a hand over my mouth and his finger on his lips telling me to keep quiet . I was already crying and the worst wasn't yet to come . I stayed quiet so I wouldn't wake my little sister up . The last thing I wanted was for my little sister to be in danger . He aggressively took me to a room and threw me on his sons bed . His pants where unbuttoned and low, he locked the door and started walking towards me . I was shaking , not knowing if I should yell for help or if I should stay quiet . I didn't know what he was capable of doing and I wasn't about to find out . I softly whispered " please don't hurt me please " but it meant shit to him . I was crying my eyes out as he put his hand on my neck " shut up you won't say a word to anybody you got that ?! " I nodded my head and he threw me back . He took off his pants and started undressing me and touching my body . He had the time of his life while I had the worst day of my 10 year existence . I was in pain as he had sex with me . I was in tears while he had a grin on his face . Why ? Why me ? Out of all people why me ? What did I do to deserve this ? Is it my fault ? Daddy I need you but your asleep , mommy I need you but you are at the club . I had no one . I was alone . I had no hope , nothing , nobody . The funny thing about this is that my mom had just talked to me about sex just the other day , and how I should wait for the right guy & how special it was going to be . He wasn't the right guy , this wasn't special . This was rape .