Discord...
The one social media I regretted to download.
What do you guys mean by this? Well, allow me to explain.
Basically a close friend of mine told me about this app. I'd say a while back ago? Might be around the summer break. Me and him played roblox and had some roleplays together here and there, and it went swell for us. He even felt like a close friend to me, until the day came...
I hesitated at first when I first heard about this platform social media app. Considering, if I recall correctly before having the app for a while, it had live voice chats, group chats, streaming, etc. and considering that their were others that my friend planned on bringing along, I haven't felt so much pressure about making other friends, especially on online.
But, after a little bit of thought, this would be a new chance to make some new friends even if they're online. So...I took the offer, downloaded it, created an account and started to have the experience. It was just me and him at the time. We mainly talked about stuff like Bfdi/Bfb for example. Until more and more time passed, I believe it was like 4 to 5 of us in the server at one point. At least in my perspective. And sure, we did had some ups and downs here and there, but it did ended up okay for quite a bit...until the events of slowly another person made a server happened. This person happened to be named "kirb." (At least their profile name). And to be honest, him/her with the others at first, I wasn't exactly positive of it at first, until slowly having more time with them slowly along with spending time with each other, they are a pretty chill person.
I would say more, but...I'll get straight to the point.
The reason of why I deleted discord was because I knew for the fact that the more unstably and drama happened, the more unhealthy I would feel about my mental state...considering I'm around a high schooler at 10th grade. And I know that my parents won't exactly let me say much of my info around social media, but this is just too personal for me to hide it.
I feel like my hearts pounding like I made an awful choice, but at the sametime, it felt like it was for the best for me...I'll still talk to you guys on roblox or Wattpad here. Heck maybe even YouTube, but...discord...didn't given me the heart of joy I expected it to me...
I just want to clarify that this is NO ONE'S fault...
Sure, jelly, you may think you brought this upon yourself, but looking back...you were just stressed the hell out...and...I feel awful and stupid to even snap at you like that...and for that, I'm sorry...
As for everyone else by chance seeing this, this would explain my lack of motivation to do stuff on wattpad lately. And it was specifically mainly about Discord the whole time. Sometimes I just wish that I should've just deleted it earlier to calm myself down...but...it felt like I made a mixed choice...I might need to think about that...just...give me some time to recover from this...
I'll see you guys soon...
