Diary Entry #3

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5/23/2015

So I'm pretty sure this girl has a crush on me, because she keeps touching and like holding my hands weirdly when I talk. That's what she keeps doing in the picture😂 She's pretty weird, but I have to be nice around her. And she is nice.... but she is just well... weird. And this girl told me to be glad that someone is attracted to you, and I was like sorry....I mean I like girls and guys, but she is just kinda gross. And I know that's absolutely horrible and mean and bitchy to say, but she is. Her hair is greasy, her clothes are old and gross, and I'm not saying you have to have perfect gorgeous hair and perfect gorgeously clothes, but at least don't wear them three days in a row when she has lots of clothes to change into. And I have tried to like push her hands away in a nice way from kinda like touching me, but I think she is just really persistent. UGGGGHH. And I have to be around this girl a lot, and she hangs around me when I am talking to older people and just laughs at whatever I say. I REALLY just want to say back the hell away from me, but that would be hurtful and she already is very anxious and depressed already! Granted she may not have a crush on me, but I don't like to be touched that much by people I don't really know that well, or people that I don't find attractive. Am I an ass? I am a really nice person, and sometimes I let people walk ALL OVER ME, but I don't want to make arguments and enemies. But sometimes people just push me the wrong way. Like today, she literally grabbed my hands and like held them. Like they do in romantic movies or like a romantic love scene. It's fucking weird!!!!!!!!! UGGGH. Please don't think I am a douche. I really am not😔 Have a nice day/night.

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