Hidden Desires | Jaehyun x Renjun

Chapter 7

Renjun's Pov

I always have to go to J Entertainment every day due to the collaboration. I've become good friends with Hyunjin and Felix as well. They are fun guys to be around with, though I can feel at times they want to keep a line of respect with me.

The collaboration is going good, we've already recorded the song, now only learning the dance and filming the music video is left. Hyuck has heard the song and complimented me a lot.

Today we need to learn the dance. It's gonna be so much fun.

The dance is supposed to be light and minimal, not too fast and big moves.

I tried to learn as best as I could but Hyuck's expression looks dissatisfied. I'm not sure whether I'm doing the dance wrong or he's dissatisfied with someone else but he keeps making us do it again and again.

Hyuck is a renowned dancer in South Korea, his popularity rose internationally as well after his dating news with Mark, the Canadian rapper. I've known him since young, we have always been together since elementary school. I am well aware of his capabilities and achievements that he gained all by himself without any support from his family. He's a friend I cherish as well as deeply admire. I know he works super hard and is very serious when it comes to work. But something.. sometimes he looks so serious, it kinda scares me. Not saying that he shouldn't be serious about his work, it's more like.. at random days when he's not being his cheery, goofy self, it makes me feel weird. Just like how he's glaring at me through the mirror.

I noticed that he's been glaring at me only since the last few minutes.

"If I'm doing anything wrong, tell me" I said.

He looks at me with an annoyed expression. He fixes his cap before massaging his temples.

"Renjun" he starts "I'm not saying you're doing anything wrong, it's just you are not giving the feeling that you're enjoying the dance"

"Enjoying the dance? Well I'm doing it exactly how you asked me to, can't you see I'm perfectly enjoying the dance"

He shows me the moves again and I copy it just like him.

"Tsk.. again"

Exactly how am I doing it wrong?

I made him so annoyed that he got up and went out the room, closing the door without a loud thud.

"It's okay, you were doing good" Hyunjin reassures me.

"Yeah, keep practicing, you'll get better in no time" Felix says.

After everyone leaves the room, I stop practicing and grab a bottle of water. While I was trying to open the bottle, my hands felt weak, my eyes started feeling itchy, I looked at myself in the mirror, noticing how worn out I looked. I hadn't eaten anything since morning and didn't learn anything properly. Is Hyuck mad at me? Is he disappointed in me? My eyes itch more until finally tears drop. I must've been his worst student. I feel my hoodie wet from my tears but what can I do, they won't stop.

I heard the door open, I turned to see who it was.

"Hyuck"

"Renjun.."

I instantly turned my head and packed my things. I didn't want to talk to him.

I was gonna dash out the door but he grabs my wrist and pulls me in a hug.

"Renjun.. I'm so sorry, really so so sorry"

He says sorry a million times but no sorry can stop my tears which is neverending.

I try to push him away but he hugs me even tighter.

"Renjun please, don't cry, I'm so very sorry for how I acted earlier, please my relationship with Mark is actually hell, I feel depressed most of the time and I don't even understand why, if my friendship with you also becomes bad, I'll really end up quitting"

What's going on, what is he saying? His relationship with Mark isn't good? He's depressed? What is he quitting?

All these thoughts run inside my head.

"I'm really having a hard time, please don't hate me, I won't treat you like that again," he cries out. When he finally releases me, I see how miserable he was.

His eyes were just as red as mine from crying or maybe he cried before even coming to me. He takes my hands and softly circles his thumb on my palms.

"Don't hate me, don't leave me, please speak to me okay" his voice trembled, I gave a slight nod to him.

He kisses the back of my hand, I thought it was his way of apologizing even though something like this has never happened before. I've never seen Hyuck like this, neither have I been in his arms for so long.

He presses kisses on my knuckles as well as on the tip of my fingers.

"Don't worry," "Even friends fight, friends can also have little things they hate about each other, they sort their indifferences out, and learn to love each other"

"These little fights shouldn't ruin our friendship, isn't that how it should be"

It's as if I know this isn't how it should be but Hyuck has a way of words, I feel he's right and I'm wrong.

I nod quietly as I listen to him.

"I'm really happy to have you as my friend,"

"Do you love me Renjun?"

a question I never doubted the answer to,

a friendship I never want to break ever,

an emotion his eyes radiating which I never felt before,

an answer slipping off my mouth which I'll regret forever

"Yes, I love you Hyuck"

His face brightens up, a hyuck that's new to me.

"I love you too Renjun" he embraces me again but this time it's rather tenderly.

a/n: no doubt this is a jaeren au!