Zy'Lanee 'lala' Smith
📍outside
⏰12:07pm
"aye zy'lanee , im finna go too the muddys house, find a ride home assum" my bf, cj told me walking away. "oh um, okay". This nigga is so weird, i needa leave. let me just give yall a rundown.
So me & cj been dating for a year and sum change, BUT we were toxic, as fuck. Worst than me and my ex, darrian. Me & darrian were toxic, but NEVER this bad. So everytime me & Cj argued or got physical, i would run too ddot.
Some may say its 'wrong' or 'cheating' but honestly, it's payback. Everytime we get into it, he runs too smoochies. Yes i know, i know im dumb for staying but he says if i leave he's gonna kill me. AND I LOVEEEEEEE MY LIFE, so i stayed. Im gonna leave soon though, watch.
"ZY'LANEEEEE" i hear somebody yell, so i turn around. "OMG BESTIEEEEEE" i yell back running up too ddot jumping on him. "where you been gangsta?" "um, with cj." "man doodah why you still with that nigga" "cause i love my life?" "fuck that, i heard what he just told you, come ride wimmie ma." he says putting me down and lookin me in my eyes, i want risk it all but im not yall.
"okay cmon darrian" "watch the gov lil ma, cmon" he says grabbing my hand and starts walking, he walking fast as fuck and i cant walk that fast cause of what happened between me & cj earlier. "yo zy cmon ma walk faster" he says turning around looking at me "i cant ddot." "why not zy?" "meandcjgotintoitandheslammedmehardasfuckonthegroundmakingmehurtmyleg" i say fast as fuck so he couldn't understand. "yo zy'lanee what?"
"me and cj got into it and he slammed me hard as fuck on the ground making me hurt my leg" i repeat, but slower and also lower. "really ma? why you ain't call me?" "cause it happened before he brung me out here" "igh, ill handle it." "watchu gon do darrian" "dont worry about it lil ma, jump" he says tapping the back of my thighs, i jump and he catches me.
He walks too the car, and gets in the driver's seat with me still in his lap. "you gon drive like this?" "yeah, just ride lil mama, take a nap." After he says that, i close my eyes and gts.
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DARRIAN 'ddot' JIMENAZ
📍driving around
⏰3:30pm
So as im driving around with lanee, im just thinking like damn, this nigga really be putting his hands on her and shit. ion understand why tho, she's everything you could ask for in a girl. i also know thats not everything he be doing too her tho.
"zy" i whisper in her ear "hm" "i gotta talk to you wake up" "ok" she mumbles. So i pull over and scoot the seat back away from the steering wheel so she can sit up. "sit up".
"igh so i wanna know exactly what cj be doing too you, mentally and physically." i tell her looking at her while rubbing her thighs. "basically um when we get into it, he calls me bitches and hoes, and he tells me im big as fuck and eat to much, then when i start crying he gets mad and hits me.
Then he leaves and goes too fuck other people, and then comes back apologizing and doing the same thing. Then sometimes he'll tell me im ugly or sum, then he'll say that his other girls look better than me & stuff, but sometimes he's nice and sweet, like basically tryna manipulate me." she vents while playing with her fingers while looking at me. 'her lil sexy self'
"listen ma, you not a bitch or ugly or nun of dat, you perfect, i love your whole everything, your body, your face, your scars, just you in general igh, fuck everything he said." i tell her and she starts crying. "aw cmere mh, i gotchu okay? you mine, he aint gon never hurt you again, i promise." i say while pulling her in a hug
15 minutes later..
"gimmie his number" "212-724-3394" "igh, im finna call igh?" "ddot why?" "cause ma he's hurting you." i tell her while calling him.
The convo (bold- cj, regular- ddot, italics- lanee)
"yo who dis?" "yo bro this cj? "yeah bro why wsp" "yo so i got zy'lanee in my lap rn crying cause you be fucking up her head, thats true?" "na shawty buggin, tell her pull up too my lo" "nah bro, why you be fw this girl ?"
"man watchu talking bout?! ion be fucking with that girl head" "nah ma tell him watchu told me" "stop lying christian, you do be abusing me mentally and physically, you be bashing me, you manipulate me, you fuck me up, you tell me you hate me n shit bro, im done, you hurt me so bad, im done bro, im done" zy says laying back on my chest crying harder.
"thats all though gangsta, tell the muddys i said yooooo" i say hanging up.
convo over !
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"ma stop crying and sit up" i tell her and she sits up. "wipe yo pretty faceeeee" i tell her while wiping her tears and kissing all over her face. "its done, its over, i gotchu now. you mine lil mama, youre mine" i tell her while hugging her tight.
"i love you darrian" she mumbles "i love you more zy'lanee."
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my birthday is in 20 days as of rn (the 22nd) 😊😊😊😊
quick lil update for rn
-dee
